‘ you don’t love me , we’re just two lonely people trying to hate ourselves a little less . ’ // iluuuuu
𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐒 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐔𝐏 𝐈𝐍 𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 , 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐘 𝐓𝐎 𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐂𝐓 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 . no crying , thats the past ; that is not who you are anymore . yet those words hurt , more than it should’ve ; someone questioning her feelings for them , second guessing ; telling her what she feels : it . . . it felt condescending , this world was hard . showing too much emotion was weakness , showing too little was erasing the last bit of humanity that was left in her . fist tightened at side , nails digging into palms ; getting worked up like this always brought a violent headache , a side affect to the gun shot wound . that wasn’t something she wanted right now .
INHALE . . . EXHALE . . .
eyes peaked back to jae , they were watery , though slowly trying to recollect herself , fighting the tear to remain in duct and not let it show more than it already has . ❛ DONT ... TELL ME WHAT I FEEL , JAE . ❜ voice may have wavered , but it was strong while being spoken . ❛ i may hate myself , but that has nothing to do with how i feel for you . it doesn’t change the fact that i was a shell until you came along , it doesn’t change the fact that you helped me find myself again . if you don’t love me , thats fine . but dont . . . don’t take away what i feel for you . ❜