Happy Choose-day, y’all. :-)
What a stressful weekend and Monday that was. I was all over the place.. Sometimes this damn Murphy’s Law is showing itself in all forms. What gives.
I’m pretty confident no one gets to see my posts so yea, I’d sharing my thoughts, no matter how mundane it is.
Since there are a lot of things in my head the past few days, I just want to wring my hands off the “adversity”, shake off all the bad luck and move forward. Life has its own way waking us up from our calm slumber.
I have also been feeling unwell the past few days, more psychosomatic than physiological.
Vee has also been adding up to my concerns in the past few days. To be honest, I thought I wasn’t concerned about him. He said he’s between jobs now. I feel upset that he cant help his son. I also feel upset that things aren’t going as planned.
Co-parenting is one of the most difficult things to do in life, I’ve figured. There’s a rollercoaster of emotions in every conversation. I’m furious and upset about this support thing, but also, I feel concerned that he’s jobless and might get kicked out of the house since he is of no help at the moment. I’m trying to be cordial despite him not sending his support since April of this year. It’s a constant effort dealing with him. Some days I have to stand firm about what my son needs, but, also some days I try to be empathetic about how he stands in life right now.
I don’t know. I just really don’t know how to deal with this.
My older son (who by the way is my foster child, in fact) who I share with my ex of almost 10 years, is another story. This ex is also a far cry from ideal. Another co-parenting altogether. It’s a long story why I ended up fostering him.
Oh now I can truly say, I have been such a good collector of WOW exes.
The other one who’s a very good provider, even better than good if I may put a category on it. He’s even being very thoughtful of my youngest (biological) son. But he’s an expert in gaslighting and mincing words. I’m always on my toes when I talk to this ex. He’s a very good provider, even better than good if I may put a category on it. He’s even being very thoughtful of my youngest (biological) son. But in exchange of that, I will have to deal with all this person keeping all the scores of the things done for me in the past like it was a deep debt of gratitude that I owe. Most of the time, I feel for the present girlfriend who’s going through almost 90% of what I went through in the almost 10-yr stint
As for Vee, who is a foreigner by the way, is very calm. He would always control his temper. More often than not, he would try to talk nicely even if I know and feel that he’s already pissed. He’s very intelligent making him really weird most of the time. He’s weird in his own way. He doesn’t believe in God, oh wait, he doesn’t believe there’s God.
So yea, after all these stories, now I’m wanting to run to the ocean for some fresh air hence the photo below, that was taken at Pico de Loro, Batangas back in March. Tide me up to that place pleaseeeee. :-)
Now I’m on my way home. I picked up the youngest, but he wanted to visit the cafe where I stay while waiting for him, so yeah, here we are, about to pack our stuff.