Butter Cake
I'm putting the link here so I don't forget. My son loved it so much when I tried baking it. :-)
https://www.allrecipes.com/recipe/7460/butter-cake/

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Butter Cake
I'm putting the link here so I don't forget. My son loved it so much when I tried baking it. :-)
https://www.allrecipes.com/recipe/7460/butter-cake/
Have to keep a memory of this link since my son loved it!
Holidays 2025
Here are this year’s Holiday photos. Random shots from all over this December.
This year's table setting was when the LaCo coffee crew came to our house for our Christmas party with the kids.
Our food.
We mommies and the adorable kids.
SD crew Christmas lunch at Edsa Shangrila.
Christmas Eve at my SIL's, the Dairocas' home in Paranaque.
Thank you 2025, Hello 2026!
Triumphs in 2025:
My kid and I have a roof over our head.
We have more than enough food on the table.
We live comfortably without asking for help from a lot of people.
My kids and I are healthy.
I’m own good terms with Josef’s dad despite the arguments mid-year. Time heals wounds, if not all YET.
Realized that LOVE is not something given, it’s earned. Same goes for RESPECT.
Made time for self-care, meditation and me-time.
Kept my circle small.
Met new friends. Kept the good, awesome, old ones.
Dodged negativity
Focused on my children SOLELY.
Worked on my inner peace. Glad to have this kin of peace in years.
Let NO man enter my life.
Thankful for my co-workers, boss and job.
Glad to welcome the new year again. Hello 2026!
Thank you, Lord.
Goals for 2026:
Continue with my daily devotion.
Spend half an hour of meditation/quiet time everyday.
Make time to run again
Take “mini”-breaks.
Make time for self-care.
Do something unplanned once a month.
Be more kind and do an act of kindness as often as I can.
Eat healthy. Lose weight.
Do a social media detox 2 days a month.
Make sure the house is well kept.
Be more organized.
Spend less
Monetize my hobby.
Save.
Keep my circle small and sincere.
No chasing of people who constantly want to go.
If there comes a chance, ONLY take a chance with the love that I deserve.
Stick to these resolutions.
Stay focused.
Always be thankful.
Enjoy life.
Be happier.
Ready to move forward this year, looking forward to moving to my hometown in Q2.
Let’s do this. Fighting.
The LaCo Moms coffee crew
Our kids are all in K1. It started with just the three of us Cai, Karen and I. For a time, there was a falling out between me and Cai. Nothing big so it was taken care of eventually.
Fast forward to early- November, had a quick conversation with Khat after dropping off Josef and we just hit it with the chicka chickahan. The next day, we were sitting at our favorite cafe right across the school. The rest is so they say, history. LOL.
We would spend hours together while waiting for the kids to go out. We hang out at our “favorite” coffee place, First Street. Coffee is life, eating is lifer but chika is lifest.
Cai is the strong figure in our group. Someone who always wants to pay (who btw, why would we not want that? Haha). She’s tough on the outside, comes on too strong but deep inside, is a softie who’s a crybaby all the time. I like her this way and most of the time I feel that she’s like my younger prodigal sister. Sometimes out of track with how she handles her love life but I also appreciate how shew values the insights I share with her.
Karen, the little dragon. Calm as wind but strong as storm. She’s the cutest in height among us, but makes sure her opinions are heard. She’s my regular after-school chicka friend. We spend time together everyday yet we still have so much catching up when we get home.
So yea, dropping the photos here for memories when I later move to Subic, if things pan out the way we’ve planned.
Seokjinnnn!
I was lucky to have been able to watch the Run Seokjin Tour Encore for both days, streamed online. I’ve never been this crazy-happy in my entire “fangirl” era than the past few days.
Had my drink and chips ready an hour before the concert starts and told my kids to please leave me be for the next 2 hours. Well, that wasn’t what happened but it was still fun. JL shared with the chips and dip but didn’t watch with me. LOL. And Juju, who was a Baby Army, JK stan all the way, watched with me and danced as JK was singing and dancing. He was a guest, btw, with Hobi no other. Their performances were really awesome but what got me the most was the water bomb fight they did and as usual these boys are so chaotic.
Day 2 was also fun and touching when Tae and Jimin guested. I felt Tae so much when he cried and said he missed Army so much. And I loved it more was there to comfort him by making him laugh a little. And Jimin? Still as cute with the way he walks and smiles.
I’m putting all my screenshots here, just so I have a record of all the happy thoughts and feelings I had on October 31-November 1.
I love you, JIN!!!!! You made my purple heart soooooo happy.
PS. How I wish Yoongi and RM were there, too. They would have completed the fun.
Until next spring, when I can watch the OT7 altogether.
49th Photo Dump
My heart is so full to have my kids by my side. Happy to have spent it quietly.
Special thanks yo Kafkeyk for always being the ever thoughtful friend who sent me Almond Sansrival, and to Belle and Mayette for the very pretty and dainty ube chiffon cake. You guys made me happy today.
BTS
OT7. Always and forever.
I’ve been an Army since 2018. Discovered them while I was trying to lose weight. I’d run about 7kms daily after I drop off JL to school everyday. Since I was all by myself, I had to bring my earphones while running and that was when I fell in love with them.
All good-looking, funny and lovable.
I have always been a fan of boy bands way back when NKOTB were still young (so am I). Jordan Knight is the man. But I also loved Donnie Wahlberg. Ohhh grade school days.
Then came Backstreet Boys when I was in college (shows the age this time if you count the debut years).
This time I loved Kevin Richardson. I love the bad boy look. AJ came in second but he was a close friend’s bias that time and no way will I get in the way. LOL.
Until BTS came. Super GOAT.
I have never “fan-girded” this much in my life. It's funny that I became a fan in my 40s. I completed the subscriptions, downloaded the content, watched each online contest about them, and marathoned the Run BTS episodes. I’ve been hearing about them but never had the chance to check them out. I just keep hearing that they’re like the Beatles and that they’re really awesome. So when I had a lot of time in 2018 to listen to them while jogging, I learned to appreciate them right away. Just like that. These boys took my breath away. I was initially drawn to V, but later found my way to Jin, Suga, and Jungkook. I love them all, but these three are my Top 3.
Yes. I love them. I really love them but I wasnt’ just much into the merch because I want to keep my stuff “minimalist” in some aspects. But these McDo TinyTan figures really caught me. I was contemplating on the throwback edition and decided not to get it. But when the Encore edition came out, I just couldn’t let it go.
So yea, to make the story short, I got myself a full set on the day of its launch. And I just wanna put that here. LOL.
Perhaps my next BTS post will be about me, watching the 2026 World Tour. Until then, I’m keeping my fingers crossed.
Nth.
I turned a year short of my golden age yesterday. Glad to have reached this age without the gray hairs yet.
I thought it would be a quiet bday. I was thinking of cooking Kare Kare and Crispy Pata but since JL was sick for a week, I was thinking he would not be home to celebrate so I decided against cooking. But thank you Lord, he went home in the afternoon with Yette and Belle. They brought a balloon and a cake. My son coming home made me the happiest.
My uncle also sent me Kimchi, Lumpia and fruits. How thoughtful. My BFF Kafkeyk sent me some Almond Chocolate Mousse via delivery and I’m so touched. What I thought was a quiet day turned out to be meaningful in itself because I spent it with family.
Weekly grind at home.
I promised my children that I will always make time to cook or bake whatever they want, every week. I’m too busy juggling work, taking the youngest to school, doing all the chores, cook each and every meals and on top of that I make a least one kind of cake or cookies or any pastry they want.
Like any other week, I had to ask. And this time, they gave me the liberty to pick whatever I want. Nice! It’s been ages that I’ve been craving for Red Velvet cake, or cupcake. :-) I’m not sure with you, but I have this mentality that we eat more when we eat a slice of cake rather than a cupcake.
I went on looking for my cupcake liner and unfortunately, I couldn’t find it and all I found were the tart/pie liners I used recently for my Portuguese egg tarts. Since we’re to consume the cupcakes at home, I think the pie liners would do.
I’m sharing the recipe below in case you’d like to try it yourself. My sons said it’s soooo good.
What should we do next week? Ube cupcakes, perhaps?
RED VELVET CUPCAKES
Makes 12-14 cupcakes
Bake for 25-31 mins at 350°F
¾ c melted butter
1 whole egg
¾ cup white sugar
2 tablespoons red liquid food coloring
3/4 c cream (all-purpose or heavy)
1 tablespoon white vinegar
1 ¼ cups all-purpose flour
2 tablespoons cocoa powder
½ baking soda
1 teaspoon baking powder
Cool the melted butter. Set aside. In a bowl, mix white sugar, flour, cocoa powder, baking soda, and baking powder. Add melted butter, egg, and liquid food coloring. Mix well. For this recipe, mixing by hand is fine, but if you do use a mixer, be gentle and avoid overmixing.
CREAM CHEESE FROSTING
1 cup (225g) cream cheese
¼ cup salted butter
¼ c powdered sugar
Soften cream cheese and butter. Using a mixer, cream the butter first, then add cream cheese. Sieve the powdered sugar before adding it to the cream cheese mixture. Blend well until well combined. Pipe on cupcake/cake
I use my rosette tip for this. You can use either a Wilton 1M or a Wilton 2D
Happy Birthday, my Love.
My youngest celebrated his 5th birthday last week and also his first time to celebrate at school since he’s now in Kindergarten.
We had a countdown starting from “25 more sleeps to my birthday, Mom” to “1 more sleep and I’m 5, Mom”. He’s always been a simple kid. Happy with simple toys and treats. At a young age, he knows that Mom has to work hard so we can live a decent yet frugal life. I’m thankful that I don’t need to explain many times that we have to live within our means. Goes the same for my eldest, who knows that we live on a budget and we cant exceed unless there’s a need to. Thank you,Lord for my children.
Going back, my youngest, on the eve of his birthday, wanted to wait for midnight just so he can say it’s already his birthday. It’s nothing extra but come midnight I got a cupcake and lit a candle on it and sang the birthday song for him. Oh my, he was overjoyed with that small gesture, something that he might forget later on, but to me, it’s a core memory I will hold in my heart forever. His eyes are shining so brightly and said “thank you.Mom” and gave me a big hug like as if it’s my birthday.
The next day, he went to school with the chocolate chip cookies I made for his classmates and the chocolate cake I also made for him (upon his request). He said he wants to bring the cake I make at home and share it with his classmates. We topped it with a planets-and-astronauts themed decor.
So yea, here’s the Moist Chocolate Cake recipe again. I have to put it here for future reference too. :-)
Cake:
2 cups all purpose flour
3/4 cup cocoa powder
1 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1 tsp iodized salt
2 cups brown sugar
1/2 cup corn oil
1 egg
1 teaspoon coffee powder
1 tablespoon plain white vinegar
2 cups room temp water
Frosting:
2 cups heavy cream
2 cups dark chocolate, chopped
1/8 cup salted butter
In a bowl, mix the flour, cocoa powder, baking powder, baking soda, salt and brown sugar. Set aside. In a separate bowl, mix oil, egg and water then add to the dry ingredients. Mix everything together and add the vinegar and mix well.
Preheat oven to 180C for 15 minutes and bake for around 45 minutes until firm. Cool first before frosting.
For the frosting, you can make this ahead of time since we need to chill it for a while so it can be pipe-able. Boil the cream. once boiling, turn off the heat and add the chocolate chips/chopped chocolate and butter. Mix well. Chill for 4 hours or even up to overnight.
Once the frosting is ready to use, use a mixer to blend the frosting before putting in a piping bag. Use this to frost your cake.
Sharing his cake below. Not the best looking as we were really superrrr pressed for time. No excuses, but I also had to make about 150++ cookies and pack them. All these within a 15-hour window. Whoa!
Still glad with the results coz my son was the happiest that day. He even told me “Mom, you’re the best. You even made me a cake and cookies for my classmates”. That really melted my heart so much.
I love you, Anak.
Life lately.
My team finally got the chance to meet up for lunch to celebrate our first work anniversary. Working with SD went by so fast from Day 1. Maybe that’s how we feel when we have an awesome relationship with our co-workers.
I have been wanting to try doing the Portuguese Egg Tarts as requested by my boss. He even asked one of my co-workers to bring home the egg tarts from Bakehouse in HK. That’s for me to taste and try replicating it. My boss really thinks high of my baking skills, which I humbly disagree with. LOL
I tried to check on each and every egg tart recipe online and I wanted to know the base of the recipe is aside from eggs. Came across about 4-5 recipes with good reviews but nothing, not one says that it has cream cheese on it. In my head, I was really thinking that there was cream cheese in the Bakehouse tarts.
So yea, while I took note of all the recipes, I also did my own R&D (wow, that sounded very professional. Lol) and came up with my own just in time to bring to my SD team. In case you wanna try it, I’m putting the recipe below, also the forgetful me told me to write the recipe somewhere that I can see anytime.
By the way, the pie crust recipe I used for this is the same one I used for my Peach Mango Pie. Here’s the filling recipe.
Portuguese Egg Tart filling:
1 cup heavy cream
3/4 cup milk
1 cup cream cheese, softened
6 egg yolks
1/2 c plus 1 teaspoon granulated sugar
1 tablespoon cornstarch
1 teaspoon cinnamon powder
Preheat your oven to 425-450F for about 15-20 mins.
In a bowl, cream the cheese, add the eggs, heavy cream, eggs and the rest of the ingredients mix well. Pour over your pie crust and bake for around 20 mins or until the top is kind of blackened, not burnt.
Sounds easy, yea? Not so. But definitely worth a try. :-)
By the way, it came out well. My teammates loved it. I also brought some for my parent friends at school liked it too. The cream cheese really hit the spot in this recipe.
We don’t find happiness. We make it.
Tuesday. Choose-day.
I’m still sleepy after only having a three-hour sleep. By the way, today’s my work anniversary, marking my first year working from home for this UK-based agency hiring personnel from the academe.
In hindsight, I remembered my previous company and how it was like to work back onsite. Every day was (I’d say) fun although the stress will always be there. It was fun remembering that I went down for a smoke with people from different departments. That stint was so fun each department has a representative, yeaaaa, each and every department! Some of these people are the ones I happily call friends now. We had the funniest and wittiest conversations at “Narnia”. It’s unbelievably a different world in the middle of the Ortigas CBD. I should have taken a photo of it for remembrance. LOL.
Fast forward to how work life is these days, it has gotten some kind of boring. WFH indeed has its own perks and cons. No traffic jams, no extra expense for dining or coffee after work and no close monitoring from either the boss or the “know-it-all” co-worker who always want to stand out like as if her life depends on it. Cons, perhaps, it’s more like the feeling separating work from home. I have to work while still tending to the needs of my children at the same time. I’d get tired mentally but also, I’d get tired from doing all the housework all together. Maybe this is me, the single mom, who does not have anybody to lean on to for these things.
Nonetheless, I still feel blessed to have a job that pays the bills and the rest of our needs. I also have the best Pinoy boss who takes care of me and the team tirelessly, always looking after us making sure everything is alright. TYL.
Anyways, I have wanted to pick up a new hobby in the last few months. Sometimes, I get tired of watching tv and being a couch potato during my free time. I thought about doing my ornamental plant gardening seriously, but I don’t want to clean up after the stray cats who would periodically visit my service area and dig my plants. I wanted to do diamond painting but I think it might not be for me since my eyes don’t have 20-20 vision anymore and that might be a primary requirement. This is parked for now as I would still want to do this maybe in the next few months. I’m happy to be writing on this online journal, sharing my random thoughts because it isn’t just to keep my mind off things but also to make this as one of my hobbies (wow!!). I also want to go back to reading novels just that for now, I don’t have the bandwidth to do that since I want to finish reading a book in one go. Then I came across something that I want to try. Paint by numbers. Don’t get me wrong, I was never good at drawing or painting or anything. But I thought it would be easier to do it if there are numbers to guide me for the paints that I will use. I’ve tried doing some parts (you’ll see the photo of my unfinished canvass below) and lo and behold, it looks like a 3rd grader was working on it. But since this is new to me, I want to continue doing it. My sons though continue to bother me too while I paint - - I feel so cool saying that I’m painting haha.
I wonder what other things I can share in the next few days. But just so you know, this journal helps me keep my sanity. I don’t get any judgment while I share what I have in mind.
This is me today and thank you for putting up with me again.
So see you again soon, journal.
Peach Mango Pie FTW
I was never a big fan of Jollibee’s Peach Mango Pie until much later when I got older. Now, I appreciate it so much that I can eat it up to three times a week. Lol.
Coincidentally, my youngest son’s lesson in his Religion is about St. Augustine. I think there was a mention about peached being thrown at him somewhere and my son was so fascinated how a peach looks like. One afternoon after his class, I told him we can try making a copy cat of the Jollibee Peach Mango pie (Yum!) .
Since it’s been a while since I last made pie (Choco pie, that is) I had to search for a good pastry recipe. I checked a few online and tried reading the comments. Good thing I found a very easy All-Butter Pastry from https://sallysbakingaddiction.com/. (Visit the site for more foolproof recipes. Soooo good!)
Sharing the recipe below so in case you wanna try it. Also, it can be good recipe we can use also for our pot pies and other pastries.
I included the tips shared also from the same website.
Only 5 Ingredients in Butter Pie Crust
Flour – The structure of pie crust.
Salt – Flavor flavor flavor. Use table salt instead of coarse salt. Smaller salt crystals dissolve and disperse more evenly throughout the dough.
Granulated Sugar – Pie crust should not be sweet, but adding a little sugar to butter pie crust improves its flavor and enhances browning. The sugar crystals also help break down the hard pieces of butter.
Cold unsalted butter – Supplies the pie crust’s unbeatable flavor and flaky texture. Use unsalted butter. The amount of salt in different brands’ salted butter varies, so for better control over the flavor, it’s best to begin with unsalted and add your salt.
Ice water – The final ingredient, about 1/2 cup of ice cold water holds all the ingredients together. Use just enough so the dough holds its shape when rolling out. Many pie crust recipes don’t call for enough ice water, giving you a dry pie dough that cracks when you roll it out. When in doubt, add a little more water. You’re better off with more water (wet pie dough) than not enough water (dry, cracking pie dough) because you can always work more flour into the dough, but you can’t really add water to the pie dough when you’re trying to roll it out.
** I skipped half the salt though since I used salted butter, which is a kitchen staple here at home.
TEMPERATURE MATTERS: COLD VS. WARM PIE DOUGH
- Warm dough = greasy disaster. The butter melts before baking, resulting in a hard, crunchy, and greasy crust.
- Cold dough = flaky perfection. The butter melts in the oven, creating steam that separates the crust into flaky layers. The colder the dough, the flakier the crust.
In short, keeping your pie dough cold is crucial for achieving a tender, flaky crust.
Keeping Pie Dough Cold: Tips and Tricks
To ensure a flaky crust, follow these chilling steps:
1. Ice-cold water - Mix 1 cup of water with ice, then use only 1/2 cup for the recipe.
2. Cold butter - Store butter in the freezer and thaw partially in the fridge before use.
3. Chill the dough - Refrigerate for at least 2 hours before rolling out - this step is crucial!
4. Extra chill - Consider chilling your flour and mixing bowl too - it makes a difference!
By keeping everything cold, you'll be on your way to a perfectly flaky pie crust.
I copied the instructions as written on the recipe. :-)
Ingredients
2 and 1/2 cups (313g) all-purpose flour, plus more as needed (Spooned and leveled)
2 teaspoons granulated sugar
1 teaspoon salt
1 cup (16 Tbsp; 226g) unsalted butter, chilled and cubed
1/2 cup (120ml) ice water, plus more as needed
Mix the flour, sugar, and salt together in a large bowl. Add the cubed butter on top.
Using a pastry cutter, food processor, or two forks (pastry cutter is ideal, see post above), cut the butter into the dry ingredients until all flour is coated. You’re looking for pea-sized bits of flour-coated butter. A few larger bits of butter are OK
Measure 1/2 cup (120ml) of water in a cup. Add ice. Stir it around. From that, measure 1/2 cup (120ml) of water since the ice has melted a bit. Drizzle the cold water in, 2 Tablespoons (30ml) at a time, and stir after each addition. Stop adding water when the dough comes together easily and begins to form large clumps. The dough will feel moist and slightly sticky, but not overly wet. Do not add more water than necessary. I always use about 1/2 cup (120ml) of ice water
Place pie dough on a lightly floured work surface. Using floured hands, fold the dough into itself until the flour is fully incorporated into the fats. Form it into a ball. Divide the dough in half. Using your hands, flatten each half into a 1-inch thick disc.
Wrap each disc tightly in plastic wrap and refrigerate for at least 2 hours and up to 5 days before using in a pie recipe.
When rolling out the chilled pie dough discs, use gentle force with your rolling pin. Start from the center of the disc and work your way out in all directions, turning the dough with your hands between rolls. Smooth out the edges if you notice cracks. Keeping your work surface, rolling pin, and hands lightly floured makes rolling out easier.
Proceed with the pie per your recipe’s instructions.
Once set on a pie pan, wipe with egg wash on top. Pre heat your oven to 350C and bake for about 20-30 mins.
Ohhh, and here’s my baked pie. My sons said it was yum and even better than Jollibee!
Missing you, Mom.
26th year today, I lost my Mom.
She was only 48 then. She's cheerful, kind, and very loving to us, her three children. I was the oldest and the only daughter. I have two younger brothers. My dad was a seafarer, so we didn't get to spend as much time with him growing up. He was away most of our teenage years and was only on vacation for a month every year.
It was not until my Mom passed that Dad decided to stay home and work in the Philippines again. This should be another story later on, perhaps when I celebrate his life in September.
I vividly recall what happened during the last hours of her life 26 years ago. Back story, Nokia 5110 was "the thing" during that time. And fortunately, I had that phone. So Mom would lovingly call me from time to time and would happily ask if I enjoyed having my own phone and being called. She lovingly called me that afternoon and told me to get a cake for her friend (who happens to be one of my best friend's moms) and said I should drop by the dinner party at their house since she can't come anymore, since she was cleaning the house and she was having an asthma attack. I was hesitant since my class was until 7:30PM that day. I eventually agreed, got the cake, and went according to plan.
Fast forward, I got home at midnight, and she was still up, even gave me the keys for the gate. I was surprised she was at the door, waved to my friend, who took me home, and said, "BYE, Ren". To be honest, that felt different. It wasn't her usual self.
So I came in and saw that she was sleeping on the couch because she couldn't breathe well lying down because of her asthma. I felt uneasy, and my brother decided to take her to the hospital at around 2am. I was left because I still had to lock the doors and make sure everything was secured. They went with our neighbor, who's also a close friend of Mom. I couldn't get back to sleep. I was restless. I'm used to seeing Mom needing to go to the hospital for her asthma. She wasn't in the pink of health in the last few months. But that night was different.
My mom's friend came by (the same friend who took her to the hospital) at around 3:30-ish. In her words, "nirerevive sya". I was a Psych major, so I'm kinda familiar with these terms. That clearly came to me as - my mom already passed on. Of course, she was trying to make me know it by not telling me exactly what was happening.
We were at the hospital in 15 minutes. I saw my mom in a stretcher at the ER, cold and dead. My brother hugged me so tight, and my mind went blank. It was just the 3 of us there. I was 22, my brother was 19, and the youngest was 11. My dad was on a sail and we had no way to tell him immediately.
Why in the world did this happen? We were young and all by ourselves. We called our relatives on our mom's side and told them, followed by my relatives on my dad's side. We were so lost. The rest happened so fast. Waited for Dad for 11 days to get home, and the rest is, you know, one of the most painful chapters in this lifetime.
I remembered it today. All the pain. Everything. Then today I realized, oh, was that 26 years ago already? It feels like yesterday.
And now that I'm sharing this story, I miss her more and more. It still breaks my heart not to have her around.
I have two boys now. I could have been a better mom if she were around. I could learn a thing or two from her. I would be happy to be like her. My kids would be so happy to call you their Lola.
Oh, I miss you so much. Mom. I wish I were as cool as you. I wish I were as easy-going as you. It's not easy being a parent. I struggle every day. There are so many ups and so many downs. Yet again, I live, survive, thrive and grow.
Thank you for everything, Mom. Visit me in my dream when you can. I'd be happy to use your tight embrace and kisses any time.
Happy Choose-day, y’all. :-)
What a stressful weekend and Monday that was. I was all over the place.. Sometimes this damn Murphy’s Law is showing itself in all forms. What gives.
I’m pretty confident no one gets to see my posts so yea, I’d sharing my thoughts, no matter how mundane it is.
Since there are a lot of things in my head the past few days, I just want to wring my hands off the “adversity”, shake off all the bad luck and move forward. Life has its own way waking us up from our calm slumber.
I have also been feeling unwell the past few days, more psychosomatic than physiological.
Vee has also been adding up to my concerns in the past few days. To be honest, I thought I wasn’t concerned about him. He said he’s between jobs now. I feel upset that he cant help his son. I also feel upset that things aren’t going as planned.
Co-parenting is one of the most difficult things to do in life, I’ve figured. There’s a rollercoaster of emotions in every conversation. I’m furious and upset about this support thing, but also, I feel concerned that he’s jobless and might get kicked out of the house since he is of no help at the moment. I’m trying to be cordial despite him not sending his support since April of this year. It’s a constant effort dealing with him. Some days I have to stand firm about what my son needs, but, also some days I try to be empathetic about how he stands in life right now.
I don’t know. I just really don’t know how to deal with this.
My older son (who by the way is my foster child, in fact) who I share with my ex of almost 10 years, is another story. This ex is also a far cry from ideal. Another co-parenting altogether. It’s a long story why I ended up fostering him.
Oh now I can truly say, I have been such a good collector of WOW exes.
The other one who’s a very good provider, even better than good if I may put a category on it. He’s even being very thoughtful of my youngest (biological) son. But he’s an expert in gaslighting and mincing words. I’m always on my toes when I talk to this ex. He’s a very good provider, even better than good if I may put a category on it. He’s even being very thoughtful of my youngest (biological) son. But in exchange of that, I will have to deal with all this person keeping all the scores of the things done for me in the past like it was a deep debt of gratitude that I owe. Most of the time, I feel for the present girlfriend who’s going through almost 90% of what I went through in the almost 10-yr stint
As for Vee, who is a foreigner by the way, is very calm. He would always control his temper. More often than not, he would try to talk nicely even if I know and feel that he’s already pissed. He’s very intelligent making him really weird most of the time. He’s weird in his own way. He doesn’t believe in God, oh wait, he doesn’t believe there’s God.
So yea, after all these stories, now I’m wanting to run to the ocean for some fresh air hence the photo below, that was taken at Pico de Loro, Batangas back in March. Tide me up to that place pleaseeeee. :-)
Now I’m on my way home. I picked up the youngest, but he wanted to visit the cafe where I stay while waiting for him, so yeah, here we are, about to pack our stuff.
Today was tiresome
Early riser today - perimenopause or my body clock had other plans! Made breakfast for my little one (chicken nuggets and rice, his favorite). Luckily, it's an asynchronous day, so no school rush.
I baked a Carrot-Pecan cake for a friend's birthday and delivered it in person. Sharing the recipe below in case you'd like to try it.
We spent the afternoon catching up, despite me feeling sluggish and tired.
Oh, and I had a parallel conversation with my son's dad all day - more on that later.
So yea, here's my Carrot-Pecan cake. It's a crowd favorite. :-)
Ingredients:
2 cups all-purpose flour
1 ½ teaspoons baking soda
1 ½ teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoon cinnamon
½ teaspoon fine salt
1 cup nuts of your choice plus ½ c additional ( walnuts, almonds, cashews, pecans)
1 cup vegetable oil
1 cup brown sugar
2 cups, carrots, grated
⅓ cup non-fat milk
Mix dry ingredients and nuts.
In another bowl, whisk oil, eggs, and milk.
Combine wet and dry ingredients (use a mixer for easier blending).
Preheat oven to 325°F. Grease a baking pan and pour in batter.
Bake 40-50 minutes, checking periodically.
Cool on a rack while preparing frosting.
Cream cheese frosting:
¼ cup butter softened
¾ cup cream cheese, softened
½ cup powdered sugar, sifted
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
Beat butter and cream cheese until smooth and creamy.
Add vanilla and salt, mixing well.
Gradually add powdered sugar on low speed until fully incorporated.
Frost the cooled cake and sprinkle the remaining nuts around.
Tip:
For a smooth frosting, make sure your cream cheese and butter are softened before mixing. If you plan to pipe the frosting, sift the powdered sugar to avoid clogs.