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Me: *sees/hears something about my special interest/hyperfixation*

My brain:

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*Minor spoilers for TMA 100*

Okay I know we talk about the guy from the coffin episode who realized he was in a horror movie & then lived

But can we talk about Robert Lennox, who literally walked away from the spiral bc he was gonna be late for dinner? King.

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Look, sometimes I have really big emotions and my body can't contain them all so they come out in stimming and/or vocalizations. It's not my fault I have a bigger amygdala than you. Shut the fuck up, allistic. *shoves u in a locker*

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"Why did you like and not reblog my post? D:"

I added it to my queue. It will post automatically sometime in the future.

The tumblr app is ass and currently won't reblog anything

I've hit post limit

It's audio/video and I can't play it right now but I want to come back to it later

It's a long paragraph that I can't read right now but I want to come back to it later

I have a response I want to make and I can't right now but I want to come back to it later

I want to fact-check it before reblogging

It seemed personal and I wanted to let you know I support/agree with you but wasn't sure if it was okay to reblog

People I know irl follow me on tumblr and they don't need to see it but I still want to interact with it in some way

It seems like triggering content in some way and I don't know how to tag it for my followers, but I still want to interact with it in some way

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I know you weren't trying to be rude but you hurt my feelings but I can't bring myself to tell you that you hurt my feelings because it's stupid and you weren't trying to be rude so I'm just going to leave and cry and not bother you by talking to you ever again: a novel by me

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Tw; Animal Death.

A message to my followers

In early July, my cat suddenly became very ill. We overnighted her at the local animal hospital. It turned out that she had kidney disease and the following morning we had to put her down. My blog has been running on queue since then as I decided to take a break. If you don't see any more posts after this one, or if I haven't been responding to asks, DMs, etc. this is why. I'm not sure if/when I'll be back online. Thanks for understanding.

[eagleagle]

Routines, Habits, Goals: a guide by someone who isn't NT

I'm working on some "New Years resolutions" (I use that term loosely) and trying to build a routine that fits in a whole bunch of different goals. It's slow going for me, but this is how I do it and I hope it might help you:

I pick 1-3 Rules

I want to implement, very specific and pretty small. For example: read for at least 15 minutes before I go to bed, take my meds, get out of bed before noon. What I really want is to read for an hour and wake up by seven-thirty, but I'm starting small. I keep track of how many days in a row I do it, and since it is a Rule, I can't not do it unless there's some type of emergency (or I forget 😅). No skip days for me, no "just this once," no weekends off (which is really what the noon rule is all about). I get a star for each Rule I follow each day. If I miss a day I have to start over for that Rule. Once I have 25 consecutive stars, I reward myself (for example by going out to eat or watching a movie) and pick a new Rule, which might build on a previous Rule, like go to bed before 11:30, or might be completely new, like bring my water bottle with me everywhere.

Big scary goals like be in bed by ten and wake up by seven-thirty every day or drink 80 oz of water every day have to be worked up to in little baby steps.

Don't be afraid to change the goal if it's too easy or too hard. I couldn't get a streak going for a while because the Rule I was trying was "in bed by midnight and out of bed by noon" and I kept staying up too late. So I changed it. When I get all my stars for being out of bed by noon, I'll create the Rule of being in bed by midnight.

Trying to do too many rules at once or rules that are too difficult from a base of Not Doing That Thing is incredibly difficult, energy-consuming, and can be really disheartening if you fail to keep them up (which I always did).

Remember to make them simple! If you have depression and are really low-functioning because of it, maybe you can't get yourself to brush and floss like you should. Maybe your Rule could be "use mouthwash every day." Or maybe you struggle with showering. That was really really difficult for me when I was low-functioning depressed and it can be pretty hard for me still some days. Maybe your Rule is "shower or take a hot bath at least once a week."

TL;DR:

Set up 1-3 Rules

Make them small and specific

Do not break them

Reward yourself

Don't be afraid to change a Rule that's too hard for you to keep up with

When it's a habit (25ish days), find a new Rule

Profit

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I've decided that smudges on my glasses are kisses.

People say that freckles are angel kisses so I am now officially decreeing that smudges on your glasses are from kisses by god(s), angels, the universe, Crowley, or whatever you believe in.