Day 5 and alive
While I was not considering the possibility, it actually got harder. Not that I could get more hungry than I was yesterday, but I got ANGRIER. A couple dozen times today I could have picked a fight with any random fellow human being for no reason but for the sake of fighting.
Well, it may have to do with the fact that I was not able to work out today as I planned. I got up at 5:30 as usual, got ready, drove to the gym - and it was closed. A few others were waiting outside, apparently the guy who had the opening shift had missed his shift. So off I went with no workout.
Then work happened with a lot of things not working out as I had hoped they would, but I want to be honest, there have been worse days and it could have been much worse today, too. Actually, I really want to try to stop focusing on the negative and put my attention to the positive that happened today. I discovered a band that I had failed to get into before, even though I was aware of their existence. They released the weirdest album almost 20 years ago, and it was good fun to listen to them changing musical genre every few chords.
I was seriously considering giving up the purge today about two dozen times (not the same dozen moments that almost got me into fights). I was thinking about going to the bakery store after work and indulging in the sweet forbidden fruits of evil. But yay, I powered through the cravings and consoled myself by reminding me I would have proper food at least, something that would seriously satisfy me. And it did.
I still added two apples as a dessert, but hey! :D
Let’s see if tomorrow gives me the PUSH (day) I so desperately need.