#actually delusional

[chaosandmadnesscoll]

Ive been in a psychotic episode (or at least been having signs of one) for about a week now, maybe more idk

My delusions have become so much more intense than they usually are. Sometimes it makes me feel bad, but other times I feel like this is a good thing. I have become one with them. They are able to be closer to me and truly tell me what they need to say. No ammount of dose increase can take them away from me. They are where theyre supposed to be, I feel better like this

[bacteria-co]

I find it incredibly weird how people without delusions speak about "weird beliefs" when they see a practice they don't like, especially in the context of anything spiritual, ever. And ALWAYS drag delusions into the conversation, wether indirectly or directly

It just goes along the lines of : "oh yeah, you believe in this thing that scientists in the USA didn't prove? Uhm, did you know it isn't real and you're delusional. Why am I telling you this? Because it's obviously not real and wouldn't work, why would you believe it? It's just going to make you more delusional which I obviously connect with incompetent and annoying to be around. Why would you ever believe in this?" hey, so, did you consider shutting the fuck up for once before your first instinct on ANYTHING ever is reality checking when it affects you in NO way?

[manic-starlight]

Hello!

The name I currently go by is Pure Vanilla Cookie. You may also call me Manic, but only if I specifically allow it.

I use it/its or he/him pronouns. Please use both interchangeably!

As of now, my current IRL is PVC from Cookie Run: Kingdom. But I do not view us as separate beings; we are the same cookie. I will update this and re-theme accordingly if/when my IRL changes.

Please send me asks! I am very friendly, and I love to make new friends.

Do not reality check me under any circumstances. I am much happier living my life the way I would like!

I have many memories and past lives. Feel free to question me about them! I would enjoy telling my age-old life stories.

I'm well versed in nonhuman/alterhuman terms! I use the fictionkin tags because it is the group I most closely relate to.

I am taken by two. Please refrain from flirting with me...

That is all. Farewell, and remember to take care of yourself! <3

~ Pure Vanilla Cookie

[sparkley-bones]

to all my psychosis and delusion havers,

birds are just animals and not cameras

god is an optional concept

you are valid and your experiences are real even if they aren't actually reality, your fear isn't something that should be dismissed just because no one else understands what you are going through

[ashesinurcigarettebox]

“my crush looked at me for one picosecond im so delusional” no the fuck you are not. you are not delusional stop misusing terms oh my god. tell me have you ever locked yourself in the bathroom because you thought you’d be killed if you left. have you ever strategized on how to protect yourself from “the aliens that assimilated your loved ones”? have you ever had delusions, psychosis, etc? no? then shut the fuck up and stop misusing terms for MENTALLY ILL people

[starflesh-archive]

ANTI ENDOS, FLORALITY DEFENDERS, AND THOSE ABLEIST AGAINST PEOPLE WITH DELUSIONS FUCK OFF, MY POSTS ARE NOT FOR YOU

I do not give a fuck about how many times there are "apologies" about the CONSCIOUS CHOICE to use blatantly ableist language against psychotic and schizospec individuals in Florality's server. If you aren't psychotic/schizospec, you have privilege over those of us who are, and choosing to demonize a serious symptom such as delusions so you can be more aggressive about your petty, chronically online discourse is beyond fucking disgusting. I can't speak for everyone who is psychotic/schizospec, but I absolutely CAN speak for my system when I say that if you are apsychotic and non-schizospec, I do not want to hear your half-assed apology about your ableist rhetoric that contributes to the violence against my community. Just call me a slur already good fucking God.

Edit: Oh yeah, and don't fucking reality check delusional people or encourage doing so!!! You could hurt or kill someone!!!!!!!! /srs

[holyholyholey]

So i got a new psych provider shortly before applying for ssdi which was a long time coming

I never got an evaluation or appointment longer than 10 minutes

I wrote down things that happened in the last appointment

Tw maybe psych abuse

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told me i NEED to work

said i can just live with it if i don't want to do therapy when due to circumstances outside my control i have a 3rd new therapist as of Wednesday

told me to ask my PHYSICAL health doctors about conversion disorder which would make my providers never listen to me about concerns ever again due to stigma

told me "it seems like i want to be on medicine" when in the previous appointment i asked to work on tapering off seroquel, which i was no longer taking at the time of comment

when i mentioned wanting to go up on rexulti from 2mgs to 3mgs, made yet another vague comment about clozapine being my only option left for antipsychotics

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Is this weird behavior from a psych? I requested a new one, but i can't tell bc i also fear hes trying to kill me in coordination with my other doctors.

[themadlobster]

Me messaging with my friend (aka how to be cool and supportive to someone with psychosis)

Me: Had some pretty bad delusional thinking last night. I became convinced that the woman in the YouTube video I was watching was going to murder me if I watched to the end and I had to stop and cycle through like a bunch of different videos very quickly to throw her off my trail so she lost track of me and couldn't follow me and I was safe again. (Delusions are usually worse at night.) Anyway just thought I would share with you because. Well. I love you and you should know what I'm going through. I'm okay btw. It's interesting because I knew it was a delusion but I still had to act on it to feel safe and calm.

Her: Shit

Her: That sounds really scary

Me: Yeah but I'm okay now

Me: I hate horror movies usually, a propos of nothing

Her: I like horror movies

Me: There's one I did like called I Saw the TV Glow

And then we just carried on with normal conversation

And that's how that works!