Limitations are Good
For me it’s difficult to stick to one thing for a long time. While there is a small hand full of things that have been constants in my life, I have tended to work in short energy bursts on one of them at a time but eventually end up looking for the next new things and becoming bored when things aren’t going so well.
I think now I’ve begun to finally mature and feel like I can be happy just pouring my time, heart and soul into my art and stories. I’m tired of stretching myself thin only to drop everything and find something else to grab my attention. You can do many things in your life, learn exotic languages, learn instruments, start a band, make games but you have to decide what’s really important.
Then you will find consistency and passion, by sticking to something for the long haul, especially if you want to do something like a comic book series or film. It can honestly feel like being trapped in a box, and it can be scary at times to tell yourself you have to really narrow your focus, but that’s a reaction that’s irrational. In reality, being limited to that one or two passions will cause you to really focus on it. When you are bored and have nothing to do, you will keep working on that thing because you have alot less to distract you.
This is a hard thing for me to swallow, to give up being so superficially eclectic. It’s not that I can’t enjoy other things anymore, but I do have to treat outside things as hobbies and non necessary. I tend to get obsessed with new things I’m learning and neglect what’s important because those NEW things are EASY because they are shallow focused and nothing is riding on them. What’s hard, what’s difficult, THAT’S what matters. I think now I am seeing narrow focus on what I’m doing as empowering and feeing rather than before when I saw it as holding me back, boring, and tiring.