#ed character analysis

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Also it is driving me insane that Ed's body language goes camp again with Frenchie as his first mate. Like he really, truly policed his presentation around Izzy I'm going to eat drywall

(And how he was camp and still scared the shit out of Frenchie!!!! 👀)

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Can I just say that, as someone who has been various levels of suicidal off and on for like half/most of my life, I really like how Ed's suicidality and especially purgatory was handled

Like the "what are the pros and cons" and "well that fucks up your pros doesn't it" really got to me cuz I've literally done that exercise and had that problem, and throwing something is such a valid response lol

Just, the struggle of feeling like death would be a release but not actually wanting it enough to make yourself do it and struggling on the barest threads of wanting to live because you don't actually want to die, you just want things--and yourself--to be BETTER and not hurt so much

I want to wrap him in a soft blanket, give him his favorite warm drink, and hug him. I'm so proud of him for still struggling with the ropes before he saw Stede, and for letting the ropes fall away

(and if you, dear reader, are struggling with this but are still here, I'm so very proud of you too. I used to think suicidality on the reg was inevitable for me, but I'm approaching my four year anniversary of being free of it. It can get better, I promise. Hang in there (⁠✿ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ)⁠/~⁠♡ )

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Oh, the way self-loathing can warp self perception. "That's right, you're not good with people" sayeth to himself the man who, when at his most open and available, twice had a whole crew of pirates charmed with him (sans the one with a stick up his ass)

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Intrigued by all the insinuations that Ed straight up directly murdered people during his kraken spiral. Especially intrigued by what he said when checking on Stede after Ned Lowe, that his first murder messed him up. Did the others not? Was he so deep in his spiral that they didn't even emotionally register? Is that part of his spiral that he still needs to process?

Or has he just started owning up to the indirect murders like the ship fire Jack brought up? In which case the question still stands: did those not mess him up? Or is he still suppressing his emotions around them?

I wish this season had more episodes to work with so maybe we'd get to see him thinking about this, especially since it could very well be that he's done both

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"And whatever that nasty, dark stuff was...it's in the past"

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Y'know all that stuff Izzy said in his would-be resignation in season one? That's exactly what Ed turned into after Izzy pushed him back into being blackbeard