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[xanderwithanx]

STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS LOWKEY IGNORE I SOUND INSANE BC I AM

I'm moving to THE fucking city in a few months and I'm quaking am I going to make it as a concept artist/curator/art historian whatever tf?

The leslie lohman has the vibe i want for internships and hunter grad school has Connections (and what looks like a fire LGBTQA org!!!)

I'm killing it here in VA. But if i stay in this blonde cis hellhole I'll melt.

(Seriously me and all my college friends were EXTRA and alive, but the becky-ness of it all brought back the lavender scare. I was too Out and fruity for that town. Too trans and gender noncompliant. Its boring here and i can barely breathe without the kyles and karens spiralling)

Also, what if i don't get a tight group of queer friends? i would have to move to siberia and start life over, i could NEVER survive gay and alone in NY...i for SURE can't fuck with being gay and isolated (gaysolated) here

Finally, my schizo is an extra curse and i think the stress of moving the ny will kill me, if being in a fishbowl at my parents house here doesn't first

Yikes, i have to get used to the energy of nyc compared to VA or even dc. One fear.

But if I can finesse this shit and learn to vibe i WILL LIVE and finally be alive

[weird-wiki-stuff]

[jimhenson-themuppetmaster]

Kermit the Frog on his invisible bicycle, The Muppet Movie.

[prison-mikes-bandana]

Both tom holland and ewan mcgregor would get carried away with their devices sounds!

[lih67]

Tonight is that ep with Lucifer and Sam isn't it? Jared just tweeted and he sounds, um, excited I guess. I have 15 mins to decide if I'll watch or not. I swear I don't have the enthusiasm or the interest to watch anymore but it kinda sounds like an actual Sam ep so...

I just don't want to be disappointed 😞

[teaatimewiththecomputer]

coherent ramblings

not really hungry but have listened to hallelujah chorus about thirty times so i'm not asleep but really tired.

might also have applied for a part time course in philosophy of aesthetics come spring. and kinda qut an assignment at a job.

you can do lot's of things when you're tired that you're otherwise not capable of.

[cycleofdeathandrebirth]

Not only has Shailene Woodley been edited out of ASM2, she's probably going to be recast. Lol, not a good week for her. Wonder if all those fanboys complaining about her looks had anything to do with it. Hope not, that'd be pretty bad.