May 28
was reminded that taking my medication is probably good for me (ty savvy for mentioning medications) and then remembered that my mom gets mad if she finds out I forgot & that the only way I can get them is asking her to pick them up Um. eek. eeeeek.
#eeeek.#eeeeeekkk.......#mostly I just forget to take them but she gets like . Mad. if she finds out.#which is really counterproductive because it does not in fact make it easier for me to take my meds consistently it just makes me scared#when I need to pick up more. because I finally ran out after forgetting for a gabillion years.#I think I have two bottles of my meds rn but once those run out I'm doomed..... I'm doomed#sobs once really pitifully#and if I say 'umm mom I know it's not good for me but you getting mad at me because it's not good. is not helping'#well. this will also make her mad 💙 and she'll get weird#I do like my mom. she's usually fine. but sometimes she's scary