March 11th. 36+2
I haven’t written on Jay’s blog about my 2nd pregnancy really. But I think I will now. I feel quite bad about the fact that Morgan is growing quietly away in my womb and I’ve barely had time to think about her. I look after Jay, and if I’m not looking after Jay, I’m doing uni work, and if I’m not doing uni work, it’s because I’m either doing housework or I’m too ill to do anything. She hasn’t had the focus he has had, at all. And never will, in all truth. Anyway. My last birth was such a horrendous experience for me. I’ve written about it on this blog. I re-read it the other day. The biggest problem was the stitches coming out of my episiotomy and the resulting severe infection. But even if that hadn’t happened. The midwife went to the wrong hospital, I wasn’t given painkillers, I requested to have Jay on my chest for a minute with his chord uncut and that was ignored, I asked to deliver the placenta naturally which was also ignored, and I was left in a dirty bed for hours. So, I’m pleased to say that after requesting an elective cesarean a few months ago, today I have finally received my date. April the 1st! That is three weeks today! I’m pleased it’s at 39+2 rather than 40+2 - I’ve been very nervous they’re going to try to wriggle out of it and one of the ways I thought that might happen is them booking it later rather than sooner. I wonder if the weeks will start to drag now? They’ve flown by so far. I imagine they won’t drag because I am still so busy all the time, and even though over the last few days my pain and discomfort and tiredness has increased, it’s a different kettle of fish being able to think, ‘only 21 more days of this’. Unlike last time, where I had no idea when it would end. I feel unprepared now that I know when she’s coming. I guess we mostly need to stock up on nappies... more little newborn vests... tidy up all the mess in Jay’s room! Man. Also I want to get her a hat for the hospital that’s similar to the one Jay first wore - he had a little blue striped one with a knot tied in it. I want to get her a pink one the same.
