behold…! the expanse of my free will….!!!!! (There's a lot under here.)
=) so.
I want to explain the vision but.... they've been rotating in my head since forever now. how do I explain myself if I don't remember when it started really.... ..... .........
I could technically give them a name and narrow down why I stick them together but........... I feel as if I'd stick too heavily to any title and avoid adding new members. i'll let my subconscious do the heavy lifting. they are The Group In My Head.
here are some older drawings. originally it was Flowey, Enoshima, and Monika.
The next addition was Homura of madoka magica fame. here's an old and super unfinished drawing ill never get to. I once debated adding mizi alnst but there was just something missing in her character......
Actually. I think I just had a compsci rubber ducky moment. making this post and thinking about mizi made me realize what's up with this group.
it's the game breaking/time loop/?? sort of disconnect (and existential boredom) with the world and the people around you.
So of course flowey, monika and junko were the ogs. and homura comes in.
See mizi certainly has her fair share of 'behind a glass wall' disconnect from society. Her dehumanization of humans and yearning for power stems from her hatred of the fragility that she feels interacting with the aliens as a pet. She opts for a more 'alien' position as a competitor in alnst... but regrets it as she starts to feel affectionate towards sua, the exploitable she always saw herself as.
but there isn't that level of omnipotent knowledge and how that affects her...... yeah it's disconnect, but ultimately not the same one. uh impromptu mizi analysis whops.
yeah you might be wondering why ralsei is here since he isn't losing it like the rest of them are. He doesn't really have the 'disconnect' or 'exestential boredom' that the others do but I find his coping mechanism fascinating. he truly cannot handle the thought of something going off script. his knowledge is his comfort... but he also hates it..... ultimately it'd be a shame not to add him to this group. ralsei walsei my little plushie.
so I guess I prioritize All Knowing to disconnect... the all knowing club... freak bruh....
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