I warmed up for Reprise by working on another short bit of the series, and ended up writing Dorian ripping Gal’s mother a new one. I’m probably not meant to say this, because I’m trying to be nuanced in my writing of her, but... what’s the thing the Tumblr kids say about “it watered my skin and cleared my crops” or whatever it is? Because honestly, writing Dorian being all calm and gentlemanly and a little bit terrifying because “I survived my sulphur-fire of a family, like hell I’m going to be intimidated by his, now get away from my amatus because I have no familial love for you and will kick your arse (and do it stylishly, while making your family name a laughingstock) if you hurt him again” is so fun. It really is. I could write this for days.
So, I put DAI on hold for a long time, because I knew I couldn’t handle its end. I just knew myself well enough, that experiencing the FINAL end would kill me. (Damn you bioware, every fkkn time you drown me in feels that’ll last for centuries)
Because of nonsense, spoilers and endless rambling, I put in a cut
(also sorry for any mistakes. English isn’t my first language and I was up all night :x)
I also couldn’t handle not knowing what happens after the main game (and I really needed to see Varric and Dorian again...and finally marry Cullen). In the last couple of weeks I played through Jaws of Hakkon (it was so BEAUTIFUL!), The Descent (now with 100% more hate for the deep roads..still it was stunning!) and then finally Trespasser. Well, to be honest...only 2hrs have passed since I finished the last one. You can imagine how devestated I am right now. Sadly, it was a short trip and THOSE GODDAMN BUGS IN THE DEEP ROADS URGHHHH!!!!. Well, I started to crack of feels just starting the DLC (cute Cole, VARRIC! DORIAN! marrying Cullen, THE MABARI etc etc etc). But at the end, that’s were it really got me.
It should be noted that I disliked Solas throughout the whole game. Like, I was happy not to talk to him. Still, I achieved high approval with him (because I always want all of my companions to like me). That said, at the end I was really like “fuck, I might start to like him just a little bit. He isn’t as slimey and creepy and shitty as I remembered him”, but he blew it for himself again by declaring war on any race that wasn’t elven. Like, SOLAS. We could have been at least be almost-friends and then you ruin it. AGAIN! I had my suspicions from th ebeginning, but I could have let them be and now you want to kill everyone. Saving the elfs? I’m all in. Destroying everything else in the process? Nope!
Well, at least you gave me the chance to survive until someone could cut off my arm to save me from a painful death. But WHAT FOR? JUST TO DIE BC YOU FRIKKIN MANIAC WILL BE STOMPING THROUGH THEDAS LIKE A 5 YEAR OLD WHO DIDN’T GET TO PLAY WITH ALL THE TOYS?
I so hope, that the next game lets me find and stop you. I on’t want to kill Solas, no, he kinda deserves redemption, but, I won’t let you swipe every non-elf of the face of the earth just for something you might not even know if it’s possible to achieve!
Solas didn’t sound like he could garantee to fullfill his plan. It sounded more like “Gotta try some things. It will def gonna kill everyone, but not sure if it’s really gonna get the promised land back”.
Well, could rant bout Solas for hours. I won’t. I will save that for my fanfiction.
Back to my feels.
I married Cullen AND got a dog. A DOG! That’s all I ever wanted. Fuck Orlais, fuck ferelden, I’ve got a Mabari with cute spots and caring personality (and a sexy husband).
And Varric gave me the key to the Harbor. He promised to let me try it, looking forward to that dear friend.
And Dorian gave me a crystal so we could talk. And I imagine we sometimes talk in the middle of the night, because neither of us can sleep. And we gossip about shit and he gives me advice on things and I tease him about Bull and we both just enjoy those nights, where we seem so close no matter how far away he really is.
And Cassandra occasionally writing me letters, BEGGING for something “to do involving a sword and shield”.
And Maryden visiting with Cole at our little farm, showing us new songs she wrote about the good old days. Cole being all cole-y and ruining the surprise by saying out loud that I’m pregnant and Cullen getting all panicked whilst being extremly happy at the same time.
And Varric showing up shortly after, demanding why he- the uncle- didn’t know first. AND...
okay, I’ll stop myself here. i just needed that to get outta my system. I could go on for hours spinning little headcanons for my Inquisitor and all the comapnions. ARGHHHH
it’s almost 7am...really gotta get my shit together. Whoever took the time to actually read this: I have nothing to give but respect, that you actually read the rambling of a done fangirl! <3
Well...I still have my second Inquisitor...So...I’ll be having all of this all over again soon!
