#ellekhen

[citizen-khen]

Three Bodies in Orbit by @ellekhen

Lem, Mina, and the Sleeper. That's all. ❤️

[grovyrosegirl]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapter 39: The Scrivener’s Records. V

(Featuring a very special guest star!!! The Tav of @ellekhen, Church! Please be sure to check his stories in her series, A tale of suns, moons, and our lives in between. It’s a beautifully heartfelt series with twists and turns about! ❤️)

Preview:

Do what you can to help. It’s such a simple philosophy when spoken aloud. Connie practically had it ingrained in her since childhood, instilled by Ilmater’s teachings. She spent so many years of her life throwing herself at danger with only her sword in hand. So long as it did good for someone else, she would take on an ogre twice her size or dash across a rope bridge ready to collapse into a dark chasm below. No matter how much she bruised or bled, it was worth it in the end. It was always worth it.  When did that stop being enough for her? Connie wonders with a gnawing sense of grief.  When had she stopped being that person? Was she ever that person? Or was it all some continuation of her desperate need to be noticed? To be someone?   She doesn’t have an answer anymore. And she knows she’ll never find it at the bottom of a wine bottle, yet that’s been the only place she’s been looking lately. 

[ellekhen]

43 and 17 😁😘

17. How obsessively do you sit and stare at your fic after you've just posted and wait for feedback?

Oof so this is where I make my confession — the answer is VERY obsessively.

I swipe to refresh for hours — between meetings, between gym reps, half-asleep in the middle of the night — checking to see if the kudos and views go up, and I get such a serotonin boost when I get comment notifications in my inbox. ^_^;

So yeah, I definitely experience also the opposite — getting bummed/down when there’s little engagement. I don’t want to say that to guilt anyone into validating me haha but I know it’s a fairly universal fic writer experience too! The AO3 subreddit has been a nice place to know I’m not alone in that. And it’s also something I’m working on for myself!

Honestly, as a newer author I feel so lucky to get any engagement at all! Especially after my very first fic was a long fic in a small fandom. Writing for BG3 been a very different experience for sure!

43. Talk about a positive experience with fanfiction or the fanfiction community that you will always remember.

I have felt really blessed to have had so many things to smile about — especially ever since rejoining tumblr. I wish I had done it sooner! I’ve found a little community here with readers, shout out especially to those I’ve gotten to chat and ramble with: @avashnea, @lumienyx, @the-cutest-deviant, @thetoastyurge, @agent-jaselin , and @kasumitanart.

I’m going to feel bad for missing anyone because I’m not confident about matching readers’ AO3 names to their tumblr names, but I’ve also been so grateful for @autumnlassitude, @grovyrosegirl, @chamtong, as well as a couple of the others listed earlier for so often leaving enthusiastic comments with every update.

If I didn’t mention you but you know you’re a recurring reader, it wasn’t intentional! Please introduce yourself in the comments so I know who you are! :D I wish I could thank you all individually. ❤️

One positive experience in particular was towards the beginning of my tumblr return when I decided to read a fic of a mutual, touch too much by @lumienyx.

I really loved it and it was the perfect comfort fic that I needed after some post-Mirror, mirror burnout (and generally a stressful week.) After I commented, they quickly replied so sweetly and enthusiastically, mentioning that Tipping the Scales was part of what inspired them to write the fic in the first place! I think I actually got teary-eyed to learn that someone not only loved what I wrote, but was inspired by it!

We then ended up chatting for hours (until like 3 or 4 AM my time haha) and I was just so excited to realize I had truly found my people on here.

So thank you, @lumienyx. :’) 💙 You were exactly who I needed to meet and chat with during the height of writing burnout!

(Thank you for asking, @the-cutest-deviant! ❤️)

[thetoastyurge]

@ellekhen Gale was the first companion he recruited!

(Then they came upon the goblin attack on the grove, looked at each other, and wordlessly snuck past it. Not their business.)

[grovyrosegirl]

My Tav, Connie, and @ellekhen’s Tav, Church, bonding over their shared experiences. (This is what happens when another version of you dates a vampire lord and/or god of ambition.)

[thetoastyurge]

@ellekhen This image has been haunting my mind for days.

[thetoastyurge]

@ellekhen

SOMEHOW I DIDN'T SEE THAT ANYONE HAD REPLIED lmao

Behold! This is directly goofing on That One Screenshot

Also as a bonus the other one I didn't like as much but:

And if you're feeling up to it, I'd love to see either Caelroth or Waltz! But no pressure, I'm just enjoying these mans.

[thetoastyurge]

@ellekhen Look it's official now. (I'm also now seeing how BLURRY these are. I will fix that... someday.)