#elyspeaks

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I wonder when will some fujoshi viewers learn to ship in private. Not in the livechat where the livers can see it.

Yes, it was a cute moment between Shu and Luca but writing "just kiss already" and other shippy remarks in livechat is so unnecessary. Just because Shu doesn't mind getting shipped with others, does not mean you can do that in front of his face because what if the liver he is shipped with not okay with it?

Fujoshi fans in NijiEN please learn to read the room and take time to know basic chat etiquette. Shipping fictional 2d characters is so different from shipping people who use 2d avatars. How many times should it be mentioned that livers are real people who might get uncomfortable with reading shippy comments. This is one of the biggest reasons why fujoshis are getting a really bad rep in the Nijisanji community.

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Why is Tumblr hiding some notifs of reblogs with tags? Reading tags give me energy and encouragement. Now they're easy to miss when you check notifs. Everyday this site gets worse and worse.

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Their cover of summertime record gave me so much nostalgia I almost cried (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠). I remember in hs back when wifi wasn't a thing, I frequent the internet cafe using research as an alibi to my parents but in truth I was dl-ing any vocaloid covers I can get my hands on in yt. I got so addicted to some of them that I kept listening to them on repeat countless times. Those were the days.

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Pomu and Shu both appearing in one stream gives me a big serotonin boost. ☺️ I don't handle horror well though so I'll just play the stream in the bg while getting busy.

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Everytime Hiba sings, he always delivers. And now he's a part of a band in niji!!! I can't wait to see him perform together with the rest of the band members!

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Sometimes I wish my brain would stop overthinking. I sent my boss an email yesterday and it went through on my end but when I checked with her she said it didn't appear on her end. My mind immediately went: "this is it. it's my fault. i'm getting fired."

I'm so tired of this cycle. My anxiety shot up even more when I have to reply to her to confirm that I sent it.

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After looking at the after effects of mystas grad announcement, I just realized there is a fine line between defending enkr for the right reasons from defending it because they are subjected to valid criticism. This is seemingly prevalent in the jpcentric fans side. My thoughts on this are pretty muddled because there's just so much behind the scenes that fans do not see. So everything that's left is to speculate and come up with your own conclusions.

I just wish some jpcentric fans are more understanding where the criticism is borne from. There is evidence from the EN livers about how they were so let down when AR live was cancelled (and the reasons stated were pretty unclear judging from their reactions) which seems to coincide with the morale of EN going downhill and how heartbreaking it is for lxm not to be able to perform as a group one last time.

Since the jp branch is abundant with resources, I guess it is difficult for jpcentric fans to see that other branches of enkr are struggling. While the EN side was considered the favorite child out of all international branches, you cannot ignore the mismanagement that's becoming highly prevalent.

I just wish the company would get its shit together because it's so devastating to see livers say good byes to many of their friends. Yes, it's not a permanent separation but you know it will never be the same without them as a complete group. This does not only apply to EN but other branches as well esp. ID.

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I'll never get over how Nagao's marunouchi sadistic cover makes me feel. Every time it plays, a bittersweet melancholy just crashes into me in a good way. The way he sings it with such a soft voice with like a tinge of regret makes my brain short circuit so bad.