I suck at announcements so bad that I forgot to announce I was on hiatus to begin with.
But now I’m not on hiatus anymore!!!
It’s been a crazy few weeks, what with graduation, moving, and going on vacation to Vegas for a short time (I’m not rich, I just have family there is all), but I’m back if anyone cares! And I’m pretty short on RPs right now soooo...
If you wanna RP with me, like this post and I’ll throw Sakana your way! If you wanna RP with Aurora, Luna or Lily, shoot me a comment or a message saying so and I’ll throw any of them (or any combination of them) your way too~!
Semi Hiatus Sort Of Maybe I Don’t Know For How Long PSA Thing.
Hello all, this is your mun Fish speaking, of primarily blogs @emeraldsorcerer, @mokocchitomoko and my personal @emeraldfishy.
My activity is going to be pretty up in the air. There’s a possibility I might not be replying for a while. There’s also a possibility I’ll be begging for activity and contact. Or somewhere in the middle. I don’t really know. Reason why is elaborated under the read more - if you’re triggered by death, this is your warning now, probably don’t go under the read more. If you are, then all you need to know is, a close family member of mine passed away, and I’m trying to make sure their significant other is okay, and helping them the best I can, while I don’t really know how I’m going to react to all of this over time and am trying to cover my bases as best I can.
There’s a very good chance I’ll not want to do drafts, and instead just want to do little askbox stuff and memes, things like that, to make me feel a bit better without overwhelming me. There’s also a good chance I might be on my personal a whole lot, rather than my RP blogs. If I’m on your Discord server, I can’t promise I’ll be active for a while - or, I might be extremely active and stay on there all the time just to distract myself or something. In fact, this pretty much applies to all of my internet activity. Just...putting that out there.
All the details about what exactly happened are under the cut.
Two days ago, I got a call fairly early in the morning as I was trying to fill out, of all things, an initial survey questionnaire thing for trying to get me into pro-bono counseling. My mom, tearful, had barely managed to choke out that my grandpa had died - not of natural causes, but (again, of all things) a goddamn loose bull goring him to death in the city limits of the small town they live in.
This should not have happened. The bull, who had basically been smuggled under the pretense that the owner was “bringing livestock temporarily into a friends’ pasture” had gotten loose once before, and afterwards they were given one week to get it out of the city limits. The whole treatment was grossly irresponsible on the owner’s part (who is now in jail, thankfully, although for unpaid ticket charges? christ this person was extremely irresponsible), and on the sixth of those seven days, it got loose once again.
By the owner’s word, Grandpa was assured that it was a ‘nice, adolescent bull’ and was asked to come out and help lure him back into the proper pasture. The owner was trying to lure the bull (and a couple of cows that got out too) with grains, and almost as soon as Grandpa got out of his yard and onto the street where it was, the thing immediately whipped around and started charging at him. He took cover behind a tree, and for a minute it seemed like the bull had lost interest, heading back for the grain.
Well, Grandpa tried crossing the road back to his yard to go into his house afterwards, and sure enough, the damn bull immediately went for him. As fast as she could, Nana grabbed a .30-06 rifle, but by the time she got out there, it was too late. He’d been flipped off the ground, cartwheeled in midair, slammed, gored, and shoved under a fence by the bull, and at this point it wanted Nana and the owner as well. They ran back, and thankfully in the nick of time the owner closed the gate to prevent the bull from coming any closer, and Nana took that chance and shot that fucker dead a good four or five times.
...from what I understand, the scene was really, really ugly. My nana’s had to relive it over and over from people wanting to know what happened from her, and they were together for nearly three decades. This was my mom’s dad, so it was extremely hard on her. He was very well liked in the town they lived in, and Nana’s the mayor of said small town as well, so everyone knew both of them quite well. It’s heartwarming to see the whole town be behind her on this, but heartbreaking to see her have to relive it over and over again.
The main reason for the sort-of hiatus call is twofold. One, more tangibly, I’m going to be looking after my Nana for a week. She’ll have to come to grips with having the house to herself at some point...but it doesn’t have to be right now, right away, when it’s this soon. I’ve pushed a lot of my college assignments back, informed my professors of this, they all seemed chill with it and willing to work with me thankfully, but my time is probably going to be helping around the house a handful for the next week. I’m the only one in the close immediate family that can really pull that off, as I currently have no hard workplace obligations, and more so than that, I want to.
Because dammit, she’s my Nana.
Two, and this is why my title is filled with such uncertainty, is that this is the first time I’ve ever experienced a loss this close to me. I’ve never lost a grandparent before, one of my closest ones, and I’m also painfully aware that I came very close to possibly losing both of them in one go. I have no idea how I’m going to react over time. As far as I’m concerned, there’s an equal chance of me going dark with no online activity at all, or me staying here fervently writing to distract or cope, or anywhere in between.
This is an extremely new experience to me and, while there’s no way to really prepare, I’m aware of the numerous possibilities and scenarios that could play out as far as my own stability is concerned. I’m trying to closely monitor myself to see how exactly I’m reacting at any given time.
So, yeah. That’s pretty much it. I have no idea how active or inactive I might be. There’s a good chance you won’t see me for a while. There’s also the possibility I might be here all the time nonstop unlimited roleplay works. There’s a very good chance I’ll probably not get around to drafts for a while and just want to dink around with askbox stuff, memes, and silly little things to make me feel better. If I’m on your Discord server, I can’t promise I’ll be active for a while - or, I might be extremely active and stay on there all the time just to distract myself or something.
Again. I really don’t know. This has never happened to me. I’m just trying to be practical, transparent, help my Nana as much as I can, and cover my bases.
Thanks~ the good news is I think my throat is starting to feel better, though I hesitate to call it going away for good since it tends to get worse during the night.
But yeah. College, man. It’s for some people, but after five years, in particular the last two of them feeling like I’m headbutting a brick wall over and over in the hopes that I’ll break through it, I need time to figure out who I am and start doing things I actually like doing again.
So I’m sick as hell. Thankfully it’s getting better, but my throat feels like it’s getting the raw end of a heated stick of rebar still.
Outside of that, apologies for the zero amount of activity here for the past twenty some-odd days. I actually had surgery a few weeks ago (almost fully recovered from that now) and er...well, school complications...and honestly I hadn’t been feeling the writing bug lately.
But I think I’m gonna start getting more into it now if for no other reason than I dropped out while I still could to salvage my GPA in the case that I want to ever come back, but at least I’m coming out of this with an associate’s...yeah it’s a bit of a sore spot but whatever.
“Look, nuns are like...only a handful of steps removed from inquisitors, and I’ve kinda got a sensitive operation going right now, so for all I know, they could be spies. Don’t trust em~.”
a . age : 23
b . birthplace : Idaho
c . current time : 4:37 Mountain time
d . drink you had last : Water
e . easiest person(s) to talk to : >implying there exists an easy person to talk to
f . favorite song(s) : aw geez we’d be here all day i’m kinda a music snob uhhh OKAY QUICK ON THE SPOT TOP 10
Current Personal On The Spot From-The-Top-Of-My-Head Mun’s Top 10 Songs In No Particular Order 1/7/2018
ONLY RULE IS NO DUPLICATE ARTISTS HERE WE GO WE DO IT
Tonight Tonight by The Smashing Pumpkins
The Man Who Sold The World by Midge Ure
Power by Kanye West
Love Shack by The B-52s
Promise (Reprise) by Akira Yamaoka
DNA. by Kendrick Lamar
Come On Eileen by Dexys Midnight Runners
Hey You by Pink Floyd
Can’t Hold Us by Macklemore
I Believe In A Thing Called Love by The Darkness
h . horror yes or horror no : I’m picky. I like symbolic horror, horror by implication, and psychological horror. Straight gore bores me.
i . in love ? : I dunno, depends on your definition.
Sidenote: Unofficial Number Eleven Of Previous Top 10 List: What Is Love by Haddaway
j . jealous of people : Uuuuuhhhh...??? Probably. I’m certainly jealous of people who have PS4s. Jealous of people who seem to have infinite energy at their disposal. Yeah, I suppose I am.
l . love at first sight or should i walk by again ? : Well, I’d have to see it to believe it, now, wouldn’t I?
m. middle name(s) : Ian
n . number of siblings : 1
o . one wish : I want to have the energy capacity of an average human.
q . question you’re always asked : “What’s that quote from?”
r . reason(s) to smile : Having survived this long, sleeping, making things, feeling productive.
s . song you sang last : Um...does Ryuuseigun Nico Nico Douga Medley count? That’s like...fifty songs in one.
spoiler: it wasn’t very good and i did it only because i was alone and in the shower.
t . top 3 fictional characters : Big Boss, The Boss, and Revolver Ocelot. Shuddup, I know I’m biased as hell.
u . underwear & color : Like, right now? Uh, dark blue boxers. I’m boring.
v . vacation : I just came back from one, but sure, why not?
w . when’s your birthday : March 8th
x . x - rays : Once, lookin’ at my jaw for the dentist when I had to have my wisdom teeth out.
y . your favorite food : not even gonna change what the person I got this from said: literally anything spicy
z . zodiac sign : Pisces
tagged by : no one but I nabbed it from @amanuensiis
tagging : @themonochromewitch @freshholeinthewall @sunny-explosions @greenxreaper and anyone else up for it~
It’s worth noting that, like, if you’re confused with my muse’s origins...that’s fine. It’s totally understandable.
I fully admit, a lot of Umineko muses, especially the witches, are kinda hard to wrap one’s brain around if they’ve never had contact with Umineko before, and as an AU crossover take on an Umineko witch, that can make things even more weird and complicated.
This is why I specifically do not make ‘reading my about’ a requirement to interact, and is totally optional.
Besides, I’ve always held that there’s value in discovering a character through simply interacting with them, rather than reading everything about them first. Keeps things genuine in my opinion.
It’s there if you want it, and if you have specific questions or critiques, bring them in. But vague ‘I’m confused’ messages don’t really help in any way because I have nothing specific, thereby having no information that I can improve upon.
And if it’s being OP that you’re worried about, just know that he’s nowhere near as powerful as actual canon Umineko witches. I deliberately WAAY underpowered Sakana in comparison to the other canon voyagers, Lambdadelta and Bernkastel, specifically to avoid those accusational comparisons. They could absolutely thwomp him with little trouble.
'Ello friend. Umineko is one of my favorite works of fiction of all time, and getting back into it again has given me an absurdly strong desire to RP it once more on tumblr like I did eons ago. I've made a new blog after four years of inactivity here, and I'm looking to get my feet up off the ground as a result. So to that end, care to do an RP with a character from another obscure VN I love? (Forewarning you might get another ask similar to this one because of my wonky internet, sorry.)
SIGN. ME. UP. MATE.
I’ve been around for longer than four years now, maybe we interacted? What’d you play?
But yeah, hell yeah, I’ve only got two active RP threads around these parts so I could definitely go with another. Y’know, as long as you’re cool with my muse’s weird nature and all~
