Translated by Emily Drumsta
Night’s stillness stretches out into the distance
unbroken save by doves who, from afar,
coo on, confused, and dogs who bark at ancient stars
as hungry clocks devour our existence.
Out there, speeding along the tracks
passed by. I’d spent the night waiting in vain
for it and day to come… The train
its sound extinguished, distant, still,
a feeble echo in my heart
is all that’s left, behind the far-off hills.
While staring at the dreaming stars, I start
imagining the train cars, the dim light
on rows of sleepless passengers,
imagining the weight of night
on tired eyelids, eyes whose vision blurs,
weary of others’ faces, pale and stark,
weary of keeping watch over the dark.
I picture bitter irritation
in souls that grow more worn with every station
their luggage waiting, as they must,
like luggage, wait beneath a layer of dust.
They sleep awhile, but wake with every thrust
from the old train, and some look through
the windows, yawning, sleepy, gazing into dusk,
then turn back to others’ faces again,
faces of strangers gathered by a train.
Some are near sleeping when they overhear
a hoarse voice mumbling, “Look here,
“These watch-hands seem as if they’re lost.
“How long ‘til we arrive? Can you tell me?”
His watch chimes three o’clock indifferently
and here the whistle cuts him off
the train conductor’s lamp, aloft
melds with the station light in the window,
and soon the tired train begins to slow.
… A boy there, crouched between the cars
exhausted but refusing sleep, he sighs
and keeps vigil over the stars.
An anxious silence gives shape, in his eyes,
to cold indifference, as fever dreams shed light
in strange, red-tinted hues upon his face.
His two lips, parted, bear the trace
of dreams that spread, beneath this barren night,
wings rustling with hidden melodies,
his eyes near closed, as if they fear
that rays of light will alter what he sees,
or that some loathsome thing might soon appear.
This boy, so troubled and sincere,
searches in vain among the others here
for more than the old mystery,
that worn-out story with a thousand chapters.
The world is weary of its heroes’ ever-afters,
and follows it unfeelingly.
but the conductor’s footsteps pass
and then his sleepless face
is looking through the glass!
His lamp illuminates the place
he sees their faces, tired features
riders who’ve been sleepless all night long,
he sees sleepy, expectant creatures,
eyelids calling out the name of dawn.
And then the heavy footfalls fade away
into the darkness of the train.
The train passed through a wasteland and was gone
and I remained alone, immersed in black,
asking the night to bring my poet back.
Why has the train kept him so long?
Was he passed by, I wonder,
by the stodgy old conductor
making his rounds, failing to notice him,
inspecting passengers in lamplight dim?
And here I wait, and here I will remain
hoping for the arrival of the train.