#emilyric

[paintme-hateme]

Sometimes things just aren't really fair and sometimes things don't work out exactly like you imagine it in your head and sometimes being the person to say goodbye to someone can feel right, but then most of the time it feels like you cut off a part of your body by saying goodbye to them and something is missing and then you think about them getting hurt or how someone might hurt them and the thought of them being anything less than happy makes it hard for you to breathe at night and sometimes you just have to live like that for a long while until bedtime comes and your breathing doesn't pick up when you think of that same goodbye that happened so long ago. Sometimes that stuff just happenssss

[paintme-hateme]

Latte by EmileeJordan on #SoundCloud

[paintme-hateme]

Everyone would be mad at me if I were to ever be with her, which scares me. But there's a big part of me that doesn't care, and that part scares me more.

July 8th, 2015 at 1:36pm

[paintme-hateme]

Being with you feels like the time I first auditioned for a play and was asked to sing 16 measures. Being with you feels like the first time I ever gave a speech in high school in front of a classroom. Being with you feels like my first tennis match, and my first track race. My palms are sweaty and you made it hard to breathe. I daydream every chance I can get, but I stayed focused the entire time I sat on your bed in your room.

I think this is going to be a good idea

[paintme-hateme]

Please be my new beginning.

I’m Ready to Start Over

[paintme-hateme]

Running away is the best thing you can do Pick up the pace 'Cause all your unsolved problems Are good at keeping pace with you Form a relay team Or sprint your last lap All those things you let follow you Won't stop until you're trapped Turn around and run the other way Face your conflicts and maybe they'll go away Aren't you tired of running in the cold Running gets harder when you're getting old Save your bones Save your mind and your soul Stop running from your problems Stop doing what you're told

May 2015

[paintme-hateme]

I think that the worst part about seeking advice from people or books or articles or TV shows, is that all of them result to telling me that "they never really loved you anyway." And they all say it all the time and now it's just drilled into my head and I'm conditioned to think that that's why things never really work out when you try for them. It's because "they never really loved you anyway."

[paintme-hateme]

Some people just talk a little more than others. Some people just listen a little better than others. Some people care way more than others. Some people love more often than most.