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[okaypunks]

I hope your still doing personal imagines...but if you are, can I have a Louis one? Please? My names Emily and I have blonde hair and blue eyes and I'm very outgoing. it can be about anything really. Thanks!

of course love! I'm quite busy today so I don't know when i'll get it up, but I'll try and get it done tonight(:

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[sunnybreeze]

MY PROM DATE IS A WUSS WHO WOULDN'T ASK ME OUT.

GOSH DARN IT I WOULD HAVE SAID YES

HOLY FLIPPING TATER TOTS IS THAT SO HARD

[sunnybreeze]

Throwback... Friday?

(Sarah, you were/are so adorbz, let me know if you want this taken down. <3)

[sunnybreeze]

Warning, rant below the cut. I just want to get this off of my chest.

So... today was a stressful day. It wouldn't seem like a stressful day to anyone else, but for me... I think everything that's happened lately just kinda hit me today. (More specifically during English class in front of my teacher, while we were proofreading my essay. Yeah, exactly then.)

So we were going over my essay, right? No big deal, I ace all of these things pretty often- not to brag, sorry -so I'm a shoe-in for a great grade! Nope, it didn't look that way... You see, I don't take constructive criticism very well. It's not that I don't like it- it's actually the opposite. I love when someone can give me constructive criticism. Unfortunately, when I do get it, my body and my mind seem to... separate. My mind understand that I need this information to get smarter, but my body goes on defense mode because it thinks I'm in danger- mentally. That's exactly why I can have a perfectly intelligent conversation while I'm crying (and nearly hyperventilating, I might add. My teacher was worried that I was asthmatic).

However... this doesn't seem to make sense to anyone else but me. Everyone thinks its because my teacher did something or I was stressing over the paper, but... it just wasn't. What I stated above is really the only reason I can give for what happened.

I feel... so horrible now, though. My English teacher (who pretty much everyone hates, by the way. I actually think she's a very good teacher) feels so guilty and thinks she was the one to make me cry, but she kept apoligizing even after I told her that it wasn't because of her.

Before I go on to the good things that came out of this, I'd like to thank a friend of mine for comforting me while I tried to calm down. Amber (who doesn't have a Tumblr) was the one who took me out into the hallway to get water and help me slow my breathing, and listened to me while I explained how I felt... and for that, I'd really like to thank her.

Now to the good things, right? Well, my teacher pretty much told me I was one of her brightest students. Scratch that... she told me directly that I'm her brightest student, and she would have me in AP if she could have her way. I (along with my whole 3B class) also now have an extra few days to revise my essay if needed (due Friday instead of Wednesday, unfortunately 1B doesn't have the same opportunity as my class) and a meeting with my teacher to discuss the writing portion of the ACT (which I'm taking next Saturday).

And for myself for future reference... a list of things that are stressing me out RIGHT NOW:

Homework

My friends

My cousins Shelly and Sierra

Children's Theatre

Musical

Honors Pre-Calculus

My procrastination issue

My friends

Rube Goldberg contest

Girl Scouts

The issue my family is having with money.

The ACT

The process of sorting out my priorities.

The fact that I HAVE TO CLEAN MY ROOM

did i mention mY FRIENDS

...Before Sarah and Emily (who better not let anyone else in our school see this, by the way) ask, the reason I mention my friends three times is because you guys can be the main source of my stress sometimes. A lot of those in our friend group (including those who I am not completely friends with, but not everyone is included in this) can be complete fucking assholes dicks sluts whores bitches bastards donkeys sometimes. You might agree with me, you may not... but that's alright, I still love you anyways. <3 Anyways, but I'm pretty sure the main reason I get stressed because of our group is because I get plain ignored. I can't go to a friend and talk to them without someone else being there before me. And If I'm talking to a friend and someone else comes along, I get pushed to the side like an old toy.

But then, the other side of it is that when I do get the attention, I can only have so much before I need to go back to being alone. Maybe it's because I didn't have any friends when I was little? I don't really know, to be honest.