Okay I just need to get this off my chest. I think the next few months is going to be the roughest for me mentally.
Because I am at the end of the waitlist period/long ass wait queue to get help with my gender dysphoria. Like the wait time is 2 to 2.5 years and it's been 2.25 years since my application got accepted.
And its just, my life has been completely on pause the last 3 years. Like, getting a job? I can barely get out of bed. I can barely do what I like to do - write and play video games. And by now I'm really feeling that. I've just done nothing with my life because I hate this body I have.
I've been in contact with a trans support group and I should get a proper appointment with them within this next month. But even then my mental state will likely be the worst its been since I briefly fell into full on depression where I genuinely had no motivation to do anything.
I still have motivation to do stuff, so I dont feel full on depressed, but its rough.
I'm slowly leaning into covering Snippets Mobius' trip into the Elysian Realm, and while I know how its going to end - Mobius meeting Elysia and having a chat because Mobius needs to confirm something - I want her to go through and fight through the Realm (because she accidentally walked past Elysia while listening to Gimme Gimme Gimme)
And so the problem Im having is that Im not sure which Flame Chasers Snippets Mobius should meet. I dont want to do all of them necessarily, and Sim!Mobius will be one of them...
But the rest? I dont know who to use or what their interaction should be like.
You know, when I first got compensation money for how visible my scar is from my scoliosis surgery, I thought it was excessive. Surely its just taking longer to fully heal, right?
But now, several years later and its still just as visible? Yeah I understand why they compensated me.
So recently the idea that Kiana should have had some physical visuality from Sirin's genes has been popping up, mostly from me tbf. (But others have come out and said that Sirin's purple colors could have fit in well with HoFi)
Like, a few strands of purple in her hair. Something small like that. Kind of how Dudu gets those strands of white in her hair.
But that led me to start thinking about my Sisters AU that I havent worked on in like over a year and will definitely reboot with a new plot.
But I just got the idea of Ziggy, Kiana, and K-423/Sirin (because I rather do a more Sirin-esque K-423 because god I love Sirin) living it out in the outskirts of a small village.
But like, Schicksal didn't get anything out of the chase. Kiana doesnt fall out of the aircraft in this AU. So they would still be looking for where Ziggy went.
Thinking I could do a "limited scope" AU like with HaasH where I cover how they live up until HoV awakens and blows their house up.
Speaking of that HaasH continuation– I'll be blunt. I've been too focused on Snippets.
shooting my shot because I'm not really familiar with what your fav game genres are buuuuuut I remember you posting about what seemed like a card game? so what would you say about Wingspan?
I'll get it out of the way now before I go ranting about my favorite games and their genres because its all over the place.
I havent played Wingspan, so I just quickly googled what it was.
I think I would be interested in it if it was a digital game and probably if it was more complex. Its something I'd be willing to try, but I dont think its something that I would play a lot, even if it was on PC. (This is without ever trying it or seeing how its played, just reading about it)
Balatro is the card game you're talking about. Its a rouge-like deckbuilding poker game.
Now, for my favorite games and their genres:
The games I like and their genres dont match at all.
Factorio: top-down, automation base building game.
NieR Automata: open-world action hack'n'slash game.
Frostpunk 2: morality citybuilder survival game.
Neon White: 1st person parkour shooting speedrunning game.
Slay the Spire: action rougelike deckbuilder game.
Vampire Survivors and HoloCure: reverse-bullet hell games.
Now, if I just pick the games I would consider my favorites, rather than the ones I like and play, we get:
Subnautica, Factorio, Helldivers 2, Outer Wilds, Frostpunk 2, Hollow Knight, and NieR Automata.
Survival open world, automation basebuilder, action horde shooter, exploration puzzle, survival citybuilder, puzzle/action metroidvania, and action open world hack'n'slash.
Its all over the place. I dont have a specific genre that I like: I just like games.
And my favorite games, I've played them A LOT.
I "only" have 835 hours in Factorio (which is going to skyrocket once the Space Age DLC comes out in 14 days.) (800 hours is also considered not that much for this crack addiction of a game)
I have 640 hours in Subnautica. Subnautica. Its a 2km X 2km map! A normal playthrough takes like 10 to 20 hours! I know this game so well that I have to mod it to be extremely grindy just so I can enjoy it for longer!
I have 340 hours in NieR Automata. That's a story-driven game! There's 60 hours of content with the DLC!
I have 536 hours in Helldivers 2. That game came out on February 8 this year and I bought it on the 11th of March!
Oh my god I forgot about Persona 5 Royal. Just add turn-based action dungeon-crawler life-sim to the list of genres I like. Oh yeah I also got 467 hours in P5R.
I already have 290 hours in Slay the Spire and I got that game on the 10th of July!
I love these games so much and I can likely go pretty in-depth about why I like them, but I already feel like Im ranting for way too long on this ask that is more or less just asking if I've tried Wingspan.
Again, No, I haven't played Wingspan - but it looks like a game I'd be willing to try if I stayed the night and you pulled it out.
But if you want to know more about any specific one of my favorite games, please send in asks about it and I'd be happy to explain why I like them.
Edit: I forgot about Signalis.
Hey you wanna know about eldrich space lesbians living in a dystopian regime?
