Let me explain “The Collapse of Grief” currently available at @spoke_art for the #suggestivismresonance show curated by @nathanspoor . This piece was three years in the making. I originally titled it “the collision of hearts” as I started it in a time just after my partner left and we were trying to work things out. We had 18 years of nonsense to unravel and I felt like I was imploding. I took this off the wall after we ended it for good. Over the next couple years I’d pull it out and try and work on it. Torturous markings of little details here and there, but it would just upset me eventually and I put it back away. When I moved into my studio last December, I decided it was time to tackle it for good. I’d have several years now to work through my emotions and come to a better understanding. My major grieving stages had mostly passed, and I felt like this was one of the last major markers to finish it off. And so I painted the implosion, the destruction, the rebirth, the gentleness and the tears, the envelopment of the waves of emotions, the mountains I’ve had to climb, and the darkness I’ve endured and ultimately enjoyed. It was the collapse of my grief. A new level of acceptance, and it was rewarding and fulfilling. I felt like finishing this was a emotional accomplishment. I still have waves of emotions in reference to this grief, but I’m aware of what it is now, it’s embraced, I allow it to move more freely, and accept it for what it is. . . #emotional_dark_pictures #emotionalwork #grief #process #artistsoninstagram (at Spoke Art Gallery NYC)