❝ perhaps a small part of me is selfish for knowing that i’m one of the few people that get to experience this. experience such depths of trust from you. ❞
you have known him nearly your whole life . ( you can’t imagine a you existing without a him . ) so he knows you better than nearly anyone else , has seen how you are with everyone else you’ve ever dated . ( although you don’t feel like dating is an accurate descriptor of the two of you . it falls flat , somehow . )
your fingers move , gently , in his hair , braiding the next section .
he knows , from your childhood , how much you enjoy this . he also knows that you’ve never once braided the hair of any of the women you’ve dated over the years . a small smile makes its way to your face . you pause , press a loving kiss to the top of his head , and then continue braiding . ❝ i dunno , fe . i don’t think it’s selfish at all . ❞ you know what it’s like . to feel special because of the difference in treatment . ( you know that you could ask felix to do anything , and he would . ) ( you know that he could ask you to do anything , and you would . )
you think you could live in this moment forever . ( your hands in his hair , your heart in his hands . ) you know it will have to end eventually — his hair is long , but not so long that you could braid indefinitely . ( besides , your hands begin to hurt after too much time spent on fine motor skills . ) but you also know that there will be more moments just like this one in the future .
( just as you have promised to die together , so shall you live together . )