In regard to what you posted;
If you really considered me a sister, you would have 'hurt' him on the first time it happened. You cannot just call him your brother, anyhow, because he didnt even care that he lost you. He flat out told me that he didnt. He used you, and I am sorry to say that he did, because its unlike him, and I know it will hurt you even more. But Em, I've decided to forgive you.. I just dont know how to talk to you. Im scared. Because you hurt me.. and I dont know how to trust you again. And I dont even know if YOU want my forgiveness anymore, since i hurt you too.. but if we were really best friends... we should be able to fight our ways past this and forgive eachother. I hope you go to opals on the 4th of july.. maybe then we could talk.. You dont understand how hard this is for me. I never thought that, out of everyone in the world, of all people.. you'd let that happen. You just dont understand, I guess. No one has done it to you, and you arent able to feel the pain that i dealt with for so long. sigh. Em. I just hope you can understand why i did what i did. Im trying to understand what you did, but i just find it complete ignorance or carelessness. Yes, carelessness is the better word. Just... Im ready to move on from this.. Im ready to forgive you. But please.. lets talk.