ARGHHHHH okay… it’s how moment you’ve all been wanting for…MY LOVESICK THOUGHTS🥸🎉🎉!!
Seriously though there’s this person I’ve lowkey been crushing on but I know they’re not interested in me like at all (have I confessed?- you might be asking and the answer is no- not ever in my damn LIFEEE because in a dammnnn wimp when it comes to confessing and never had the guts to confess to any of my crushes before-) anyways I know that because although I consider us friends we aren’t that close and I don’t know how to because they kinda intimidate me like they’re so much smarter and serious and cool and when they make eye contact with me I get nervous but they also said they don’t get crushes on friends so I’m majority cooked (not that I had a chance anyway) and they’re also MOVING away by like the end of the year/beginning of the year and I’m sad to lose them, more than a crush, they’re still a friend :[[
And I’m planning to make them a gift!! Well all my friend a gift- but I wanna make this one even more special! I’m just worried they won’t like or it has the wrong like fabric/s because I wanna make them a stuffy/plushie but urghhhhh idk I’m worried about it.
But yeah a bit more along the lines of dating I just want a person to loveee, someone to hug and cuddle with even if it’s a train ride or an hour drive away Y’know? Someone to share my interests with, sleep over with, game with, and just have real conversations with, just be idiots in love. It’s always what I wanted out of a relationship, just love.
I know my crush will disappear they always kinda do, they have to, I’ve never let myself do anything with these feelings of love because I know what’ll play out. Rejection, I can’t do that to myself so I’d rather sit there beside them until they move on with other people and push the feelings down. Being a queer teenager is hard, especially in a little-ish town with social anxiety and my need to please others, confession issues, and little to desire looks, granted I don’t look bad I think I just don’t like my face sometimes and chubbyness at times, but I do think I mostly care about my face looks haha 😅😅
But yeah the lovesick thoughts debut is finally here, and they are a lot of thoughts.
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^extra pic don’t mind the lesbian flag that was b4 I found out I was Omni ~_~