Mars, Mercury, Venus, Moon, Regulus - occultation
Since I wrote about September 16th and it’s conjunction between Mars and Mercury before, I’d like to share what actually happened that day to me. It was very different that I though it could be!
I’m linked tightly with these two planets which give me a quick, mental stimulation (Mercury) and a power drive to have things done (Mars), yet number 16 is involved in my birth date too.
http://earthsky.org/tonight/mercurymars-conjunction-before-sunrise
Energies of planets in this solar system have been distorted but they’re purging (through us), retrieving their best, divine, original vibration. That’s why most of us are either attached to old masculine or old feminine, not depended on your actual sex. The old negative masculine traits are aggression, impatience, anger, hate, abuse, manipulation, control, labeling, lack of empathy, forcing things to happen, invasion, rudeness, ‘my way is the only way’, shielded heart, etc.
During the last night, 09/16 at 4 am just before the very conjunction, I felt as if something put a ‘black hat’ on my consciousness, on my senses, on my ‘radars’ which I channel with. I saw black and blue expanding waves in my 3rd eye and there was also a feeling of 2 parts coming together, meeting inside of me. They were not excited about the meeting but they knew it was planned on happening and they had to undergo the process.
When I woke up, I put myself in the blank state of the mind - not expecting, just receiving whatever was coming from above. And my mood was worsening each hour! I felt mentally unable to create, to write, to think, to focus - a complete disability to use my both mental and physical powers. I was changing interests every 5 minutes, leaving things unfinished. My body didn’t want to give its energy to any of tasks I began doing. I could only lay down in bed, not even wanting to go outdoor. The mind was blocked against thinking about anything ancient. I couldn’t read about Incas or watch any documentaries. The brain didn’t want to process or have anything to do with that. It was similar to a state of depression where everything feels lost and yet I felt I was deprived of my regular 'Chi’ life energy and some layer of me was made to die again.
And when I dug deeper into myself, I asked my higher self why I was feeling so disconnected (I expected feeling quite the opposite - filled with ideas and action on that day), I received this answer: “Your old electric masculine energies are being removed because they are a source of conflict within. You cannot perform any longer like this. You didn’t achieve anything during the last few years, even you have been driven by these two - mental stimulation and ability to have things done. Thus they have to be taken out of you so you could be filled with the Light next which carries inspiration and creation. All you were doing was based on forcing yourself to thinking, having ideas, performing tasks, taking action, preparing, etc. This is a human behavior but not angelic. It was captured while you were collecting experiences when you left the Source of love - in various galaxies, on various planets and here on Earth specifically, during Orion, Sirius & Lyra wars, an encounter with a black hole, Mars, Venus and other home star and planet disasters, a following battle for survival, a constant enslavement, manipulation, brainwashing and a fight for the truth etc. You are VERY old. Plus, you were a male in all your past lives (this I figured out before), only in this life you are a female. And yet you don’t accept it because you know who you used to be, and you do everything like guys to stay authentic to your self because this your core power. Which is OK because it lets you stay with the masculine energy and yet in the feminine body with all its benefits - you don’t try to fit it into the feminine. Fitting in means a betrayal of the authentic self. But since these energies are too separated inside of you, there’s an imbalance and conflict within, and this must be removed so you could embrace your androgynous vibration fully. This was your original vibration, accept it to feel smooth inside. Oh, and do mind those crown tingles you feel once in left, then right brain hemispheres, then in both. This is a needed release”.
So I spent the day just letting it happen, while telling the Universe that it’d better be good so the next energies I receive would be equally satisfying and come into me fast, as I couldn’t live in such a state of energy absence any longer. In the evening I started feeling a bit better. I slept better too. I feel dry and empty today, but not so 'robbed’ anymore. This is the waiting time for another celestial event to happen.
The old feminine energies are represented by the Moon and Venus, which happen to enter an occultation just 2 days later on September 18th and it will also involve Mars, Mercury and Leo’s Regulus! Leo has experienced a solar eclipse lately.
http://earthsky.org/tonight/occultations-galore-on-september-18
This day may be important to all of you who feel very feminine yet this excess of energy brings all kinds of troubles into your life - manipulation, trusting wrong people, being back-stabbed, indecisiveness, mood swings, illogical actions, lending money or items and not getting them back, responding to a discussion before understanding it, speaking too much and doing little, feeling too much etc. We’re talking negative feminine traits.
Mercury & Mars make for an inner conflict between thinking and performing. ‘Should I do it this way or that way? Should I act from the logic/experience, or from the heart/passion/joy?’. Venus and Moon make us wonder ‘Should I do it alt all? How will I feel when I do this or that?’ These create delusions, self-inflicted wounds, addictions, being manipulated into things, weak will power, loving and protecting those who hurt, abuse, lack of logical thinking, danger of being a victim, inviting parasites, lowlifes and energy vampires into one’s existence, etc. And considering somebody their twin flame, while they’re not ;)
What’s happening before the Fall Equinox (22-23/09) is the balancing of our core energies and/or removal of the excess of some of these. Angelic and non-human life force is androgynous. It’s only the human that was made with such a duality embedded inside, to fight all the time either with one other, or remain in an inner conflict to sabotage the self (due to a lack of understanding how the other feels, and what motivates them).
The equalization happens also between me and the twin, in spirit, because it was the 3rd night in a row when I dreamt of us. We were close, sitting, listening, we even kissed and it made me feel the same when we kissed for real - complete within, detached from all energies which are not ours, accepted, having all internal sensors and antennas turned off, not needing to search for him or his love anymore. I rarely dream of us so it must mean something, that we are coming even closer.
I don’t know how it’s going to roll out after the Equinox. If you come across experiences like I shared above, stay balanced and let yourself be replaced by the better, don’t fight it. This way we could hold love, as love is the only comfortable vibration from now on when the split between the old and the upgraded is happening.
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