#enj412

[bleuwrites]

@windchimedwriter

I’m sorry to hear that things are still so rough. We all have very difficult stretches, so for what it’s worth, know that you’re not alone. Life does have a way of improving at some point. I hope that 2016 proves to be that year for you.

@enj412

I am sorry to hear that you’ve been feeling this way.  Life is often very hard, but usually there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  We just have to work at it and be confident in our ability to get through tough times.  I hope 2016 is a much better year for you.  Your writing has brought me much happiness, so if there is anything I can do- even being a listening ear- please let me know.  

sandf125

I’m sorry you’ve been going through a difficult time. Many days, I feel the same way. Please know that your writing means a lot to many people. I often go back and re-read your work. It’s often the bright spot of my day. Thank you for that. Hope 2016 is filled with blessings and happiness!

Thank you, everyone :) I think a lot of it is that I know this year is probably going to be bad in a lot of ways, but you’re right; things do get better at some point. And it always makes my day a little better to know that my writing makes other people happy. 

[inopinion]

I was tagged by the ever-kind @enj412.   

1. The worst reading experience that you have ever had?

I read one of those free books on Amazon that an author puts out to get you interested in their work. Independent stuff. And I can’t even remember the title but I spent 300 pages on the set up and the rising action and then.... no climax and no completion and it was just pointless. Beware the free Amazon book. 

  2. Have you ever read a book that you got really scared of?

Not scared, I avoid horror books. But Norman Mailer wrote a book called Castle in the Forest and it was creepy as shit. I probably think about it once a week. Basically, Mr. Mailer surmised his own account of what type of family experience could have created Hitler. Killing dogs, incest, beatings, infidelity... all the creepy topics.

3. What do you use as a bookmark?

Usually nothing. I just remember the page I’m on or the chapter I stopped at.

4. Which do you prefer - paperback or hardcover?

Paper back. I hate damaging a hardcover and I’m not easy on books.

5. What are you currently reading? What page are you on?

Trainwreck fanfiction... you know those guilty pleasure stories that are a bit... WTF... and the quality is iffy...

6. Do you ever browse through to the last pages in order find out the ending? 

No. I hate spoilers. I hardly even read a book if I’ve seen the movie first.

7. Do you sell/give away your books or do you keep them, even though you don’t like one of them?

Mostly I read electronic, so I keep them. But if I have a physical book and I know I’m not going to read it again, I’ll give it away to someone interested.

8. A book you were excited about, but ended up not liking?

Atlas Shrugged, I loved The Fountainhead, still do, and was looking for another way to pick apart the heavy ideals of Ayn Rand, but just found Atlas Shrugged to be beating me about the head rather than subtly infusing ideology into story.

9. Book you tell everyone to read?

Dooms Day Book by Connie Willis - also, the psuedo sequel Say Nothing of the Dog. Also The Cleaner by Brett Battles.

10. Favourite author?

I don’t have one. I don’t often read multiple books by the same person. But I will say I really liked Connie Willis.

[bright-eyedwanderer]

enj412 replied to your post “I’m going to be honest, I haven’t been working on any of my WIPs. The...”

That is a great question! I do not know. I am not sure the screenwriters know either, honestly. I hope your writer's block ends soon!

I think they were like “oh, this would look really cool” added it to the screenplay without thinking too much about the how. Right now I’m already weirded out by the flying doughnuts in the Allegiant teaser trailer. 

And, yes, I hope this block goes away soon. I’m still jotting down bits and pieces, some for FYWB, others for future one-shots and/or chaptered stories. Just when I have a more permissive schedule this happens. 

[bleuwrites]

enj412 replied to your post “I am sorry to hear others are having a hard time, but reading this...”

I agree with Lola and headcumberbabe. My heart goes out to all three of you for what you have gone through. Work takes up a big part of our lives. If it is toxic or making our issues worse, then it is good to make a break and almost necessary.

enj412 replied to your post “I am sorry to hear others are having a hard time, but reading this...”

I also want to echo headcumberbabe's statement about getting treated, either through medication or therapy, or both. Depression and panic attacks can be reduced with treatment. Really. I have seen it.

[bleuwrites]

enj412 replied to your post “have u ever felt depressed? I feel so down and alone right now. I've...”

This is good advice. Thanks for being so open about your own issues to help this Anon. I would like to add the importance of talking to someone about these feelings and calling hotline as needed. Getting help is big step in recovery.

the kindest thing anyone has ever said to me is “there’s no shame in asking for help when you need it” 

[bleuwrites]

4, 5, 12, 14

4: Name a favorite of each: book, movie, tv show.

Book: Jane Eyre - Movie: The Red Shoes - TV Show: Venture Bros. 

5: If you were given the opportunity to spend 48 hours with absolutely anyone (living or dead), who would you spend it with and what would you do?

Kevin Brownlow, who is an amazing film historian and I would probably just die of happiness right there if I got to pick his brain for a while. 

12: What is a weird habit you have, or people have told you have. (Weird, not bad. No nail biting or any of that nonsense.)

I’m very particular about how all my skincare and bath and body products are organized in my bathroom. (it’s all I’ve got, sorry). 

14: What are five things you absolutely have to have in your dream house?

big bath tub

wood stove

kitchen-aid stand mixer 

natural gas cook stove

on-demand water heater

I’m also very particular about what I’ll cook on and with, but the bathtub and stove are necessities too ;) 

[bleuwrites]

enj412 replied to your photo “Clearly I was attacked by flying squid.”

What on earth happened to you?

a very enthusiastic make out session last night, that’s what. 

[inopinion]

building up the anticipation of awful

By saying its horrible and angsty and pitchfork worthy, maybe the reality won't tip the scale in comparison to your anxiety-riddled imaginations. In any case. Ch 22 goes tonight and 23 on Friday. In consolation for two back to back posts, I'm asking for some patience on Ch 24.