#enough character development

[theskyequakess]

2025 was a big year. In all aspects.

I lived the highest highs and the lowest lows. Often feeling like i only experienced those two ends, nothing in between.

I'm trying really hard not to focus only in the sad moments, because those are the loudest ones in my 2025 wrapped. But at least I should acknowledge them: yes, i did cry a lot; yes, i was hurt a lot; yes, i did feel let down, betrayed and disappointed. A lot. But i'd like to think that I toughen up. I tried not to stay there -for too long- And seeing how things turned out at the very very veeeery end, well, as Gracie Abrams' would say: made it out alive (but I think I lost it🤪)

But I'll try not to downplay it: this year was a really painful year. It sucked most days. I don't remember big chunks of what happened through it, and I often had this feeling of cloudiness for days, but i know it happened. I got scars.

I went to therapy, I chose to do things different, I chose differently. I somehow faced fears, I, somehow said «I'm tired of this shit» and fought it. And I won.

I need to thank myself for never giving up. I had so many things against me, the odds were against me so many times !!! but for once (or twice) I decided I wanted it to happen, which meant, one way or another it was gonna happen. And it happened. And I enjoyed every second of it.

I grew up.

I fought.

I changed.

I trusted myself.

I did it.

I REACHED SOME OF MY GOALS.

So I just hope 2026 can be gentler. To my mind. To my heart. To my soul. Because I'm not gonna lie, I'm fucking tired.

I just hope I can sometimes feel at peace.

I just hope the sad thoughts go away.

I just hope things go easier.

I just hope I can be gentler with myself.

I just hope I can be happier.

I just hope things can get better.

2025 wrapped:

I went to two concerts

I traveled twice!

I bought my first suitcase

I hugged my dog

I had surgery once

I turned 29

I read 23 books

I saw Thunderbolts*

I rewatched Legends of Tomorrow

I met my niece

I bought a tv

I watched 14 movies

I read Sunrise on the Reaping

I eat delicious pizza too many times

I listened to 13,263 minutes of Taylor Swift

I went to a wedding

I walked almost 26k steps once

I went to therapy

I took too many photos

I made too many memories

I helped others

I won at Sequence

I met old friends

I went jogging

I sang in the car with my sister

I played The Sims City a crazy amount of time

I survived the bad things

2026: this is me trying.