May 28
I've been yapping on twt but lemme just copy paste some stuff here: sexual ocd , unwilling predator enjin , intrusive pedophilia enjin (+ misogyny)
genuinely shaking thinking about it. like enjin would be Weird with the younger girls n kids because he tries TOO hard not to be!!!
he wants to be better than the rich who took advantage of him
he knows he should set boundaries as a captain but!!! as a family/guardian figure and as a savior and as a motivation to live for these kids, he must violate his own boundaries cause he believes he's the one who must provide what they need emotionally and Whatever Else
because HE is the one who lead them to be even slightly dependent on him for whatever reason. he thinks himself into a corner essentially.
#when enjin's selfish heroic acts for the sake of pursuing connections conflicts with his base psychosexual traumatic responses#his goal of being the older figure he wish he would've had when he was a kid#enzan#enriyo#zanjin#enzn#enjin x team akutouched#team akutouched#tfw you're 28 and you somehow got yourself into a daddaughter relationship with a 16 yro???#dont get me started on zanka bro#like im so sure enjin doesn't know what to do when it comes to him#he fucked himself over#not to place them in nuclear family roles i think they're definitely more than that however enjin's viewpoint would be as narrow when he#spirals about it#and he spirals about it a lot in my head#tw grooming !!