#ephihany

[davinicis-wife]

Things I’ve learned about life

Im 20 in less than half a year and I’ve been very consciously aware of it. Most people are. They think yeah cool Im 20 life is just beginning. But with me it fills me with an uneasy sense of dread. A sense that I am now ¼ of my life done, that I only have ¾ of my natural life span left. I am scared that I will die and that it may be alone. That I will never achieve the things that I dream of, that I will never lead a happy and successful life.

You wonder why. I have been depressed since I was 14. My outlook on life has changed dramatically and I am way mature beyond my years. I see life differently than most average people. I’ve been through more in my last 6 years than most people will ever go through in their entire life. I’m not trying to make myself out to be better, nor am I trying to romanticise sadness. Hell no that’s wrong. I just opened my eyes to the world again. And I have some advice. When you are young you are told this often, but you’ll ignore it and think you have so much time. There will be moments where you will want to die. To disappear. You wont value life when you are young. You will be bullied, picked on, teased. Your school years might not be the best years of your life. You will waste your teenage days away. You will argue and fight with your parents. Heck you might not even have a family. Your parents may mistreat you, they may say nasty things and hurt you to your inner core, but that may not mean that they don’t love you. They just don’t really know how to properly act and what to really do and are torn between still living their life and supporting you. Your parents may not even love you at all and that’s okay. You have yourself that’s all that matters. Armour yourself in all your hurt and scars and pain and make yourself invincible. Don’t let boys or girls steal and break your heart. Don’t let others drop you. Be your own mother. Be your own Father. Be your own best friend and sibling. Be your own goddamn dragon.

And fucking love yourself. Life is so goddamn short. It seems like only yesterday I was in high school, leaving year eleven, but that was fucking 4 years ago. Hours fly, months go by and years glisten over. Life is too damn short to hate yourself. Buy yourself things, look after yourself, never compare yourself with other people. And treat other people with kindness too. And animals. Do not ever abuse animals or this world that is your home. You wanna know what your purpose is in life?

I’ll tell you: leave a positive mark on the world and be goddamn happy. Fulfil your dreams, forgive those that did you wrong and never hate anyone. Life is really freaking short man. And while a part of me still fears getting old and dying its sure not gonna stop me from living my life. And it shouldn’t stop you either. Take each day like its your last and love. Life is short, make the goddamn most of it.

[southernclass-pearls-rubies-blog]

Single and Happy

I know this is an unpopular notation. For the most part, being single is associated with many "lonely" nights watching Netflix and eating by yourself. The question I want to know is what's so bad about learning how to be alone. As human beings we are socialized to do things together as a group therefore we never truly understand how to be alone unless forced to be. Hence where the stigma of being single is so depressing. Learning how to be happy by myself took me the better part of 3 months to do. The harder and more challenging obstacle was to be happy with myself. There is an old adage that goes something like " You can never truly love someone until you learn to love yourself." It's the idea of having unconditional love for yourself. I have this type of love for everyone I care about except me. However, it is extraordinarily vital to learn how to love ourselves like this as well. When you can finally say with courageous confidence "I love myself unconditionally." You will realize it doesn't matter if you're married, a relationship, a complicated situation or single. Happiness will follow.

[jessipls]

Epiphany

OH MY GOODNESS. WAIT. IS THIS WHY I LIKE YOU SO MUCH.

YOU REMIND ME OF Jessica Jung. omg. It all makes sense now.

1. Y'all be super adorable....all the dang time

2. You both look slightly angry most of the time when you're not smiling.....or at least you do lol .... but its still cute idk why

3. You're both Korean. lol does this even count...ehhh I guess, I mean there are a lot of Koreans who don't look the same or relatively similar...

4. SO ADORABLE. LET ME HUG YOU. (this applies to both)

and yea that's about it :)

[lilysprite]

How the fuck did I not know what 'epiphany' meant?

Let me clarify: I knew epiphany meant usually sudden manifestation or perception of the essential nature or meaning of something; an intuitive grasp of reality through something (as an event) usually simple and striking; an illuminating discovery, realization, or disclosure; revealing scene or moment.

However, I did NOT realize that this was actually the third definition down for the word for both Dictionary.com and Miriam-Webster's. The first two are:

capitalized [would have noticed that]: January 6 observed as a church festival in commemoration of the coming of the Magi as the first manifestation of Christ to the Gentiles or in the Eastern Church in commemoration of the baptism of Christ and an appearance or manifestation especially of a divine being.

Perhaps it is because I haven't grown up a religious? I don't know. I just never associated the word epiphany with god before and now it kind of weirds me out.