#erational

[lexiconjure]

erational

adj. relating to or denoting a person who provides a particular person or thing in a particular place.

early 17th century: from French érationne, from Greek erationalis, from eratēs ‘arrangement’ (see ERATAIN).

[templeofthought]

erational replied to your post:i told my boss i have a lot of anxiety problems...

when i worked at a food place, i absolutely dreaded every time the phone rang and hoped to god that someone else would pick it up. it never got much easier i hated it

same at michael's and 80% of the time i did pick it up i fucked up

[mindofmachine]

erational replied to your post: erational replied to your post:i miss ...

well you made those ocs specifically for being in a ship together but i like to have stuff develop naturally anyway anyway there’s nothing appealing about my ocs regarldess cndmsmcnx

nah me too. i love slow builds and lots of character interaction. development. thats where my dick is at. i think since we have 23000 characters in one setting somethings bound to happen but i  wont push anything. ALSO YOUR CHARACTERS WILL BE GREAT

[mindofmachine]

erational replied to your post:i miss having pairings with people. weeps

same

just you wait. threatens

[templeofthought]

erational replied to your post:erational replied to your post:im not the only one...

OH MAN i make tons of faces that i don’t intend to because i’m usually thinking about something else/zoning out. i’m sorry for my face. in work settings i usually fall back onto the higher ups for help whenever i get even slightly anxious..

i consciously straight up make faces at people because its my attempt at connecting in a conversation and looking/feeling human. i just need to learn to maintain a resting expression at all times. my social anxiety often manifests in forms of "jumping the gun", abrupt mechanisms such as exaggerating my expression or making an inappropriate expression + responding and speaking too quickly

i dont have a lot of social interaction experience given i am 22 years old

[templeofthought]

erational replied to your post:im not the only one whose social anxiety disorder...

people irl (and online?) think i’m pretty cold and elusive and don’t care about others because of my social anxiety stuff. it sucks… i feel you. i don’t think you’re unpleasant. interacting with a lot of strangers is draining

im not anxious around my friends though and in a retail position where people ask me questions and where im usually nervous to ask for guidance from higher ups it becomes a cluster fuck, m ostly today the manager mentioned there was an online complaint about a cashier "looking at someone like they were crazy" and i know ive made faces at customers and shut down because im really awkward and float out of my body in the face of confrontation or even a request for assistance , and so i am petrified that it was talking about me...though it literally has no affect on my life now

idk, life of s.a.d.

[templeofthought]

erational replied to your photo:i name my files appropriately so i can find them...

this looks way more organized than what i have. le girls

i make sure to stay organized . i know so many of you just keysmash filenames or DONT HAVE FOLDERs. AND IMM LIKE. HOW DO YOU LIVE

[templeofthought]

erational replied to your post:why do i get so sad and grumpy after finishing...

oh no… you should feel good and proud because you got something good done!

i am proud... but i am also...dead...