i miss you queen come back
Ugh I miss you too sorry I've been off I've had some insane girl group drama okay in the MIDST of exam season okay let me actually rant bc I don't rant irl bc I fear the evil eye but here I'm lowkey anonymous so imma rant:
Okay so this weekend this Reiner guy I'm seeing occasionally flew to the city i go to college to visit me (which he hasn't done since last semester) and I told my two girlfriends this info EARLY, like in January. They don't like him that much, because like canon-Reiner he can go nuts sometimes but I like him he's fun company and last time he was here like deadass last semester he went to dinner with the three of us and paid our meals and our drinks when we went to a fancy little bar (istg the check went for like $1000 dollars I didn't ask him to pay for all of us) like he was really generous and kind so their disrespect towards him is a bit ugh
This is relevant ok keep this in mind!
Either way, my dad and my sister went and watched the Michael movie premier and instantly to my friends I was like "omg we gotta go see this!!" bc my biggest hobby in life is watching movies and going to the cinema istg I'm like gold member at the movies bc I go so often and they were like "yeah we'll see it when we get time" so I was like fine it's exam period we'll see it when we have time either before or after Reiner comes here
Also relevant keep that in mind!
Sunday one of my girlfriends (she's Iraqi so we'll remember who is who) wrote in the group that she needed to talk to us and I answered when I was at the gym, then 30 minutes later she called when I was back home and I was laying in bed with Reiner and he sleeps pretty deeply so I keep answering calls when he is sleeping over and he sleeps through them but this time he woke up and my Iraqi friend said she had crashed her car into a wall or smth and from nowhere he started speaking giving his opinion which I guess he thought was doing smth good but lowkey I did wrong because my friend talked about smth private which he heard and that was my fault so when I saw her Tuesday morning I talked to her about it and apologized but I guess she was pissy
Then Tuesday evening after the gym in the locker rooms the other of my girlfriends (she's blonde and like part Swedish so lets call her the Swedish girl) is like "this girl I've recently become friends with (through me btw) asked if we wanted to go to the cinema and see Michael" and I was like omg yay! fun ! When? and she was like "well they said tonight but one of their friends couldn't so" and I was like "wait but Reiner is here until friday" and she was like "you want all of us to adapt our schedules after you and Reiner" meaning like the other girls too and I was like "??? no I don't want ALL of you to adapt I want YOU TWO my friend group to adapt I've said I wanted to see this movie for ages and I thought WE were a friend group" and she was like "now you're controlling who I can go to the movies with?" and I got so pissed off I stormed out of the gym and went home and then when I cooled down I wrote in our groupchat: "Just so you know, if it were me, I would’ve made sure it was a time where WE could all go. Especially since I literally said I wanted to see it? But I guess you have a new friend group now?
I would’ve been like, “Ah shit no, you guys can go, I’m gonna see it with the girls,” but fuck that, right?
Honestly that was just really shitty of you. But do whatever you want, I can’t deal with this. I already thought you guys were mean enough when my sister tried to be part of your conversation and you said, “No, you’ll see later.”"
And ok fine it's harsh ok but context behind this is when my sister came and visited my the four of us went out and the two of them just kept talking to each other and when my sister wanted to join their convo they were like "we'll tell you later" and I did confront them about that afterwards but it became a shitty situation anyways I was also the one who had to reach out and tell them they did badly
Anyways since I did go a bit harshly I get the response from BOTH that I'm controlling and don't let her go out and meet these other people and that I'm forcing everyone to adapt to Reiner I'm like ok first of all you wouldn't adapt to Reiner you'd adapt TO ME I've told you for months I'll be busy this weekend and week and second I'm not controlling because I feel upset that you guys go watch THE ONE MOVIE I told you I wanted to see because my sister and dad saw it (mind you I AM NOT the type of person to express that I want to do stuff so me being so excited to go to the movies is pretty big, usually I just go with the flow) and she kept going with the narrative that I was trying to be controlling and that I didn't want them to hang out when I couldn't join and I was like "I couldn't care less if you guys went out and ate with those other girls like genuinely it's just disrespect to me to watch a movie we planned to watch together without me" and I kept getting the same response back that i'm "creepy" and "controlling" so I tried to be more soft and said instead HOW I FEEL so I wrote "I'm just incredibly sad because I looked forward to watching this movie with you" and it FUCKING KILLED ME to send a message like that and the swede answered with "do you expect me to show you sympathy right now?" and I was like ugh so I stopped answering instead and alsO MULTIPLE TIMES she was like "oh are you giving up on us this easily? you don't want to solve this?" because I kept saying I can't talk to her because she's NOT LISTENING and I was like "this is the fifth time you've put words in my mouth I'm saying I won't talk to you because you're convinced of your own narrative that I'm doing this out of control when it's me expressing that something is bothering me. ALSO the Iraqi girl kept saying like "I've never heard you talk about that movie" ok my bad that I don't bring it up every day like you do with your ex or...? Like wtf?
And the swede kept saying "ok so when my boyfriend is here I expect none of you to hang out without me" and I was like oh bitch please I did not say that I said it's fucking weird of you to go watch a movie without me when I've said I wanted to see it and we literally decided to watch it together? Idk maybe that's just me?
So I stopped answering then I got this BIBLE message where she wrote "Last time Reiner was here you got upset too that we went and studied without you you just want us to sit at home roll our thumbs" bla bla bla because I didn't even bother reading the rest because that first part is A LIE last time Reiner was here was in OCTOBER and she is confusing it with when my sister was here and that time THE ONLY THING i reacted to was that they had been mean to my sister and excluded her from conversations and after that they went and studied and I got even more pissy because I was already pissed so that wasn't even on the same topic
So I answered "You're talking about the time with my sister and that time I was pissed because you guys had been excluding towards her and embarrassed me when we went out. Reiner was here last time in October and he's not even relevant, what's relevant is that I'm busy and you guys made plans we made together when you know I'm busy. I'm not expecting those girls to change their plans but I'm expecting YOU as my friends to change your plans when you know there's a movie I wanted to see." and instead of answering NORMALLY the swede answers "why are you even brining up when your sister was here I thought we went through that and solved it" and I answered "??? Because you were the one bringing up that time?" and the Iraqi wrote "If Reiner isn't relevant why do you keep bringing him up?" "???? beCAUSE YOU'RE BRINGING HIM UP" and then I wrote like "HAHAHAH read what I'm fucking writing" because I lost my mind since NO ONE was reading what I was fucking writing?????? AND I KNOW I'M A PRETTY DECENT WRITER?
When I wrote that message the swede wrote "go to hell" and left the group chat (so I can't screen or reread the messages) and removed me from all socials and THAT WAY my sister saw she had unfollowed me (she wanted to get a photo from my ig and saw we weren't common followers anymore) and I told her the situation because for a second I started feeling bad I was like oh fuck? Maybe I'm controlling? Maybe I should've just wished them a happy evening and seen the movie on netflix when it got out but my sister got really weirded out and said their behavior was wayyyyyyy beneath acceptable and that I lowkey underreacted (yay my crazy feelings being validated LOL) like she reminded me that none of my friends in my hometown would even CONSIDER going to see a movie without me when they knew I wanted to see it, and I'd never to that to ANY of my friends either which is true. and never in my biblical age have I EVER deleted anyone off my socials and at this age it's just embarrassing. I didn't call anyone anything I just called them out and honestly I don't feel like having friends who punish you for expressing yourself? I know I've had fights with my friends like who hasn't, if my friend said she was upset with me I'd really listen and change that but idk that's just me
Either way it's awkward af in uni now bc my uni has this system where they split the entire year into smaller groups of like 6 ppl so now me, Swede, Iraqi and three more people have to see each other every damn day :))) And I haven't spoken a single word with them like yesterday was so fkn awkward
Anyways I won't reach out because I stand firmly that it's a shitty move of them to go watch a movie when they know I'm busy and the way they spoke to me is not a way I tolerate being talked to at all, and removing me off all socials took it to the next step where I'm not even interested in repairing the friendship again! I'm not saying I did nothing wrong or that I'm free of faults, but flipping the narrative and speaking to me disrespectfully and not even READING what I'm writing is absurd.
And before you all say "you should've called or taken it in person" I suggested that this dumbass girl couldn't fucking wait.
That's it for my rambles LMAO thanks for letting me rant now I'll get back to my studies before uni