honestly, i don't know what you want me to say. i'm not okay with the fact you talk to me when it's easy for you but as soon as i say something that makes you think of anything that isn't shelby you flip out and stop talking to me, it's shitty as fuck. you don't tell someone you love them and then just use them for your own conveyance. it's bullshit. i wrote you a letter and told you all of my feelings and then you ignored me for three days. i texted you and told you shit tons of things i hadn't told anyone, and you ignore me again. i'm so sick of you and these games. i'm only fucking human. i still have a heart. even though it's yours i still have to feel the things you do to it. and quite fucking frankly i don't take kindly to being fucked over.
well, i guess it's true when they old habits die hard. being friends with you again feels soooo fucking incredible. i'm sorry glad that you're back. you've changed my life so quickly in only a few days. knowing that you're hurting similarly to the way i am help me know that if you can do it i can too. i hate that i already feel like i'm starting to like you again though, only because i'm afraid to go back to my old mistakes. although i feel like you've changed. we both have. i'm just scared. oh well, i'm sure that we'll both be fine. i like knowing that you're here still. i like skyping with you. i like talking to you, you make me happy. aljfalkfjalfa it's been so long since i've had any sort of girly crush on anyone. it means a lot to me. you're just.. i dunno. i love you, i really do.
i don't know what to say to you, you continuously throw back my mistakes in my face, like it's no big deal. you get drunk with someone you used to be in love with and spend the night alone with her, but when i go to wabash to see my best friend you flip out because i'm with billy? my best friends step brother? get the fuck over yourself. i'm so mad that you keep hurting me, and i'm so mad that you keep using all these double standards on me like i'm an idiot. it's not fair. you keep telling me that you love me and still want me, well i'm starting to hate you. so you need to leave her alone, or you need to get your shit straight because quite frankly i'm done with games from anyone. especially you.