~~ My Eruri thoughts on chapter 136 ~~
It seems like even though Levi says he has no regrets about having not chosen Erwin his look & expression full of despair says exactly the opposite. I mean he definitely wouldn't like to bring Erwin back to this hell but he does miss him A LOT.
I think Levi is ready to sacrifice himself in the name of his promise and a higher goal that Erwin would approve of. The salvation of mankind has now turned into a beautiful metaphor since Isayama showed that even in the face of impending death from the rumbling the Marley and Eldians are still killing each other. Did Levi, Erwin and their comrades imagine the world to be like this? In their dreams it was idealized, it was innocent and beautiful. Therefore, I can assume Levi is unlikely to want to stay in this world, he already believes that this real cruel world is not worthy of his friends' deaths.
So it's probably the time for us to mentally prepare for his death. Damn, I understand it perfectly well that this will be the logical conclusion of his story, but the mere thought of it hurts me so much I can't!! T_T
And as for Levi's regrets of course he stays true to his decision and would not want Erwin to see this nightmare. Here he is straightforward as always. I'm just curious if he has ever regretted that Erwin was not around? Did he allow himself to feel these egoistic desires, did he miss Erwin? Has it ever happened that his personal feelings to be near Erwin, to talk to him, just to feel his presence ever prevail over his decision to free Erwin from the fate of becoming a devil?
Now as I am typing this I realize that probably Levi did not allow himself such thoughts... In my mind he is already the personification of altruism in this story. His heart is too pure and beautiful for this world. And considering how many times Levi's inner thoughts were shown to us after chapter 84, this is exactly the number of times he remembered Erwin, that is, we can conclude he is constantly on his mind... Oh God I can't stop thinking about them 😭💕
Idk if killing Zeke is relevant anymore... I just hope Levi will make the right decision and if he has to die his death will be one of the most honorable and dignified. Can we hope for one last Eruri scene? 😔🥺🙏
