so a lot has happened since my long absence from this app. got a gym membership late 2023, and started working on myself in 2024. back in 2011 i slipped on ice and injured myself but had no idea the extent of it as it never hurt after that.
while working out and stuff, i noticed some severe pain in my left shoulder blade, worrying me. I scheduled an appointment with a specialist at a doctor office and had xrays and found out my left AC joint (collarbone/shoulder area) was completely separated and had developed bone spurs there as well. they ordered me an MRI (my 2nd one at this point in life) and literally 3 days before 2025, i found out i had something more severe than i thought. 13 years after the injury, i found out i have: Humeral Avulsion of the Glenohumeral Ligament.
basically, when i slipped and fell back then, i dislocated my left shoulder so hard that it TORE the ligament that holds my humerus together in the socket. i have the more severe aspect of it, so i need surgery to fix it but american healthcare is a bitch and i cannot afford it!! so im dealing with constant joint pain and have to carefully do things to not dislocate it again lol. Im also heavily double jointed (hypermobile) and have not been diagnosed with ehlers-danlos, but i wouldn't be surprised if i did have ED of the hypermobile kind. my current job uses a lot of lifting and movement so getting surgery would ultimately make me "retire" it but although i have disability benefits at my job, after surgery i would be no-go by driving for close to 2 months, and would need to do rehab and because its my left arm, our registers have us scan with out left hands so...yeah..