#personal update!

[bad-bitch-beauchamp]

Friendly little update!

Hi it's been a hot second since I showed up and obliterated everyone's feelings! I'm in the middle of a 14-credit summer semester (so only 8 weeks long) and I'm drowning in academia, plus we're trying to move to Germany in two months and I'm drowning in my house with two little kids. I'll be back soon, and so will new chapter of AWoW. 🫶

[finitevariety]

running away to the circus to be with britt lower btw

[gliitch]

so a lot has happened since my long absence from this app. got a gym membership late 2023, and started working on myself in 2024. back in 2011 i slipped on ice and injured myself but had no idea the extent of it as it never hurt after that.

while working out and stuff, i noticed some severe pain in my left shoulder blade, worrying me. I scheduled an appointment with a specialist at a doctor office and had xrays and found out my left AC joint (collarbone/shoulder area) was completely separated and had developed bone spurs there as well. they ordered me an MRI (my 2nd one at this point in life) and literally 3 days before 2025, i found out i had something more severe than i thought. 13 years after the injury, i found out i have: Humeral Avulsion of the Glenohumeral Ligament.

basically, when i slipped and fell back then, i dislocated my left shoulder so hard that it TORE the ligament that holds my humerus together in the socket. i have the more severe aspect of it, so i need surgery to fix it but american healthcare is a bitch and i cannot afford it!! so im dealing with constant joint pain and have to carefully do things to not dislocate it again lol. Im also heavily double jointed (hypermobile) and have not been diagnosed with ehlers-danlos, but i wouldn't be surprised if i did have ED of the hypermobile kind. my current job uses a lot of lifting and movement so getting surgery would ultimately make me "retire" it but although i have disability benefits at my job, after surgery i would be no-go by driving for close to 2 months, and would need to do rehab and because its my left arm, our registers have us scan with out left hands so...yeah..

[shadowsof-thenight]

And while you’re supposed to be editing the final chapter of when she least expects it, you write the entire outline of a new Steve series 🤭 I promise not to start posting it until at least some of the chapters are done, but I haven’t been this excited over an idea in a while. That said, I’ll finish When she least expects it and flashlight first.

[shadowsof-thenight]

Update

This past week there have been many reason why I was unable to write and post. The main one being that my pain medication wasn’t delivered and I spend a week barely able to use my hands at all. Fun! Anyway, with the meds working their way through my system once again, I hope to post the next part of my mini series AND write the next chapters for Flashlight and Where our story begins. Both of those chapters are well underway, but they do still need work. I hope to post at least one of them after the weekend, but I make no promises.

[harps-for-days]

Practicing for the first time in (what feels like) a decade! I missed the school harp room...

[mentalhealthwarrior]

Personal Update!

I just realized I have so much school left, and it's going to be a fight. especially this week.

I'm also in that weird state where you don't want to do anything, but you don't want to do nothing. you're uncomfortable but you don't know why. Gross!