#espurrfect

[bonusdragons]

September 11, 2019:

Pink Primary, Gaoler, Smoke.

Theo of Espurrfect's clan!

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im an espurr rn though and... maybe part lugia? i keep feeling the weird spine ridges pop up and then i shift back to espurr real quick and go "what the hell just happened" |D

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weird fact: i like wearing clothes when im espurr??

idk if my human liked to dress me up in my espurr life but i dont think i would have minded much if she did

i mostly like to wear little jackets uwu

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espurr memories (cw negative, death. i literally started crying while writing this, its very sad. sorry)

i don't know how long pokemon live and now it kind of scares me to think about

when i was an espurr, i was in a shelter, much like your average cat shelter, kept in a little run that was crowded with other espurrs. the living conditions weren't great, but i was kept healthy and fed properly so it wasn't too uncomfortable. i don't remember thinking about much other than when i would be next fed or wanting to get out, and as we were young and had trouble controlling our psychic abilities, i could tell that all the other espurrs wanted nothing else as well. i remember us all crowding the door when someone would walk by, wiggling our little stubby paws at whoever it was.

it took me at least two years to get adopted, and my person was a lonely elderly woman. she took me in and took good care of me, but due to the condition of my mental health from the shelter, i was always very distant. i wanted to be among other pokemon, and while i was happy living in a warm, soft home, i would have been happier among beings i could easily telepathically communicate with. human minds take some getting used to, and i was untrained.

i caught myself gazing out the window at night, the old woman lived in the countryside and i wondered what i would find in the nearby woods. i never made to run away, as i figured that the people from the shelter would just take me back if they found me, and i didn't want to leave my person or worry her. i could tell with my psychic skills that she didn't have much time left, and i didn't want to put any unneeded stress on her.

one day she held me close to her and spoke in the human language that i didn't understand. i could tell from her vital signs that this was the end, and i wanted to be there for her, i wasn't strong enough to heal her but i might have been able to make sure she wasn't in any pain. she began to sing softly to me, lulling me to sleep.

when i woke up, she had passed on.

i fled the house, seeking comfort in the woods. it's all a blur from there, but from the bits and pieces i can remember, i was injured in a fight and malnourished, and stumbled out to the road, seeking human help. the people from the shelter just happened to come, maybe someone made a call that an espurr had been wandering in the woods, maybe it was just pure luck.

they picked up my dusty body and carried me to the car, my little chest heaving with each breath. i heard the phrase "put it to sleep" before everything went black.

i think that was it. i don't remember waking up. i don't think they did the deed themself, i wasn't in a good way by then and i think i just died from my wounds and malnourishment.

sorry about that. just wanted to get it out

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apparently the espurr thing was a past life and im not sure if im comfortable talking about the memories

they're not Terrible they're just sad and i've been stressed lately so i'd rather not think about that right now;;;

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unknown entity has espurr memorie--fuc k UCKF THESE ARE REALLY SAD

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i think im having espurr memories

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i literally found out that espurr!me sounds like catbug because i started ranting to myself about how i dont like certain things in the espurr tag

so i was literally going "i didnt kill anybody!! and stop hurting espurrs!!!" in catbug's voice;;;;;;;;;;;;