#esseversutus

[cantsleeponthistonight]

Thankyou so much :)

Thanks so much for your replies, I have no idea how to respond on my phone properly... But you were so helpful and it was stressing me out quite a bit, you helped so much and were so thoughtful, it really means a lot, and I'm always here for you and anyone, hope your all doing well and stay strong, thankyou :) xxx

[aut-vincere--aut-mori]

esseversutus replied to your post “My tutor pulled me aside today to let me know that next week we’re...”

Although, it might be uncomfortable I think it's great that you're doing a lesson like that. We never had any lessons around topics like Eating Disorders x

I think it's because I'm doing a BTEC in Health and Social Care and it's mandatory to pass. We're looking more at the psychological effects/symptoms of eating disorders which is going to be quite weird. Especially as it's coming from someone who's never had any experience with eating disorders. I'm hoping it will be okay though, he's usually quite sensitive when it comes to such matters.

[cantsleeponthistonight]

Telling Uni (response)

I don’t think I can reply on my phone, pain! But thankyou a lot for the replies they all really helped :) I’ve decided I am going to tell Uni, it is for the best, just a bit nervous! Thankyou so much :) xx

[aut-vincere--aut-mori]

there-is-more2life replied to your post “[[MOR]I need  want to cut so so badly but the dress that I’m wearing...”

Please don't hurt yourself :( Im sorry that you are struggling and I am sending lots of love your way xxxxx

strijden replied to your post “[[MOR]I need  want to cut so so badly but the dress that I’m wearing...”

Be strong, u can do this

esseversutus replied to your post “[[MOR]I need  want to cut so so badly but the dress that I’m wearing...”

Please don't hurt yourself :( Could you try screaming into a pillow? It's not quite the same but it might relieve some of your stress without hurting you xx

Thank you all for your kind words. 

I went to cry in the shower instead which seemed to calm me down a bit. I just got upset because my mum read and took out of my bedroom a letter (addressed to me) from my doctors and I didn't want her to read it. What's done is done though, I can't go back and change it. I think I'm extremely over tired as well.

I just hate everything I've become right now. I'm sure I'll be okay again in the morning though. 

[aut-vincere--aut-mori]

esseversutus replied to your post: My plan for whilst my parents are away:

If you have a bad hour that does not mean a bad day. If you do have a bad day, it does not mean a bad week. You can get through this and you can make it a good week. Here for you if you need anything x

Thank you lovely, that's a really good thing to remember because I do have a bit of a habit of thinking in black or white. Thank you x

[aut-vincere--aut-mori]

 from Michelle

11 new people, always post the rules, 11 new questions and let the people know you tagged them!
 I tagged you with the questions in my blog post. <3

Like Michelle, I’m going to put my answers under a read more.

Anything written by Linwood Barclay (I'm kind of obsessed with him). Room - Emma Donoghue. Something Invisible - Siobhan Parkinson.

2. A sudden scientific study has proven reincarnation is real! What animal do you hope to come back as? And why?

Probably either something domestic like cat because of how pampered and well looked after you are or something very wild, maybe a meerkat? because they've always got that closeness of their family/friends nearby but at the same time they have such a wide space to explore.

3. What’s your favourite scent to wear?

I love any of the body shop perfumes - my favourite of them probably being 'dreams unlimited'.

4. Who is your favourite film character?

I don't think I have one to be honest. i find films too short to be able to choose any kind of favourite.

5. What toppings are the best on pancakes?

I'm going to have to say the old fashioned sugar and lemon (mainly because that's all that I've EVER had on a pancake!

6. If, by law, you could make all writing pens one colour, what colour would you choose?

Probably black just because that's the only colour I ever write in.

7. If you had a magic “make it better” box, what three items would be the first you’ll put in?

My I-Pod If you can put animals in (without it being an act of cruelty) my cat. A photo album.

8. What is your favourite number?

I don't have a favourite number. When I was little I used to say that it was four but that's only because four was my best friends favourite number...

9. If you could have any talent which you don’t currently have, what would you have?

I would love to actually be talented at playing musical instruments. I know that I can play them okay-ish now but that's mainly because I've worked really hard at it. I would rather just have a talent for it.

10. If you could have any animal in miniature and domesticated, which one would you have?

A red panda. They've always been my favourite wild animal, I have no idea why though.

11. What words do you find difficult to spell?

I wanted to write 'necessary' here but I just spelled it right so I'm no sure! I think most of the time my spelling is okay but when i'm tired I literally find any word hard to spell!

My Questions:

1. What's one quote or phrase that you try to live by?

2. Do you believe in fate?

3. What was the last thing you had to drink?

4. Do you prefer coke or pepsi?

5. Do you ever swear in front of your parents?

6. How do you usually celebrate Christmas?

7. What film never fails to cheer you up?

8. Were you involved in many clubs as a child?

9. As a child what did you want to be when you grew up? What do you want to be now?

10. What's your favourite item of clothing that you own?

11. Do you collect anything? If so, what?

The people I've tagged are

daisychainpopsicle

Eileen

Cynthia

Charlotte

Anna

Kiz

Laurie

Chlo

Phillip

[hauntedgravity]

esseversutus replied to your post: esseversutus replied to...

You can label the IP address that you think might be your sister and then you know when that IP address accesses your blog. You can copy the IP address and just put into an IP location finder to see if that locator says different x

Yeah, I do those things already. I haven't labelled this one though, so thanks for reminding me. If it comes up often, then I'll know it's her (well, hopefully) thank you for your advice x

[hauntedgravity]

esseversutus replied to your post: esseversutus replied to your post: How far out can...

Do you think she could have an anonymous account that she’s following you with? At the moment I just have statcounter. What tracker are you using? x

Someone else said that to me and I said no, but I'm not to sure thinking about it. I know she has a tumblr for her artwork (as most of her uni friends and coursemates do) but I have no idea if she has another random account.. I think no because she doesn't really like the website and doesn't see the point in it, but she is so nosey that maybe she would do that? Ugh I don't know. I just don't want to have to delete. I use statscounter too, I know google analytics is meant to be good but I can never manage to install it correctly x