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WERE GOING TO HEAR THE LAST INSTALLMENT OF THE SPANIARD NAMED VASQUEZ STORY TONIGHT

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omg, but Poe speaking Spanish to the dream team tho?? He thinks he’s really clever for calling Rey ‘mi reina’ because yeah, there’s some wordplay going on there but Rey is majestic af so of course he’d endearingly call her queen. And Finn would do the same, thinking it really cute. And maybe that’s something they keep to themselves, too, you know? A private endearment that’s laced with cariño. They say it to her in the morning, when they’re having breakfast together, a word said playfully over coffee and held hands. Poe says it a night, speaking it to her hair when she’s having a particularly harsh time trying to sleep- the insomnia happens to each of them in waves, the cost of loss and battle that is softened by the warmth of a shared bed and the comfort of embrace. Finn says it with stars in his eyes though. So when he calls Rey reina, there’s no doubt in the universe that he means it with every fiber of his being. 

And then!! Finn loving to learn Spanish from Poe!!! Finn is v happy to learn he has a knack for it, that he speaks it beautifully and with some ease!! So, he catches the hang of it as quickly as he can!! Esp bc Poe is always throwing Spanish words around without necessarily catching it, you know? When he’s happy, when he’s excited or exhausted, when they’re piloting or when they’re all alone, there’s Poe, slipping some words into his casual vernacular. So Finn and Rey try to learn as much as they can, but they also get a hang of things by context- they know what cariño means because of the sweetness in Poe’s voice when he calls Finn that. They know what bella means and it catches a blush in Rey’s face every time Poe calls her that, no matter how casually he says it. And they know what mi vida means because they hear it when Poe’s worried, when Finn’s recovering from a blow or when Rey has returned them, just narrowly unscathed from some danger and Poe goes to them, holds them when he can, and says, holding them tight, mi vida, mi corzaon, mi vida, I almost lost you- 

And when Poe says amado or amada? when Poe says te amo for the first time? Not te quiero, because they know that. he says it all the time. But when he says te amo for the very first time, they know the shift, the distinction, the want and the depth of that. When Poe says “te amo” for the first time, their bond becomes delicate then, hanging in the air with sincerity. Suddenly, the love between the three of them is something brilliant and fragile and precious. The relationship they all three somehow sundered into, without jealousy or tension or even intent, (because loving each other felt like instinct, like gravitational pull) now needs a name, a meaning, something declarative that they’ve conveyed in touch and intimacy and routine but not exactly into words. So, Poe says to them te amo. I love you. I love you both. I can’t imagine a life without you both. And what do Finn and Rey say? Well, they were preparing for this. It’s something Finn and Rey both wanted to know from the moment they drew to one another- how do you say I love you? How do you say it so means I love you passionately, truly, seriously? Te amo, they realize. Te amo, Finn says, looking at Rey. Te amo, Rey says, tasting the words on her lips and laughing when Finn squeezes her hand. 

Tambien te amo, they say to Poe before they all but tackle him into an embrace. 

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So, just to tally this shit up:

Daryl and Beth (ace romantic). Beth dies.

Achilles and Patroclus. Patroclus dies.

Steve and Bucky. Bucky dies. 

Steve and Peggy. Steve dies (kind of) and then Peggy dies.

Thorin and Bilbo (ace romantic). Thorin dies.

Bard and Thranduil. Bard dies.

Enjolras and Grantaire. They both die.

Frodo and Sam. Frodo almost dies.

Cosima and Delphine. Cosima almost dies

and now!!!

Ragnar and Athelstan and Lagertha. Athelstan dies.

There’s a fucking pattern and it DESTROYS ME. 

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FRIENDS!!!! MY FRIENDS!!!!! I just got an email from my school because I've been chosen to receive an additional scholarship from alumni from my school bc of my grades and stuff!!!! I'm getting another scholarship!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

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MILO GREENE AND BOMBAY BICYCLE CLUB CONCERT IN OCTOBER /SHAKING INTENSELY SOMEBODY COME W ME I NEED TO GO WE NEED TO GO LETS GOOOOOOOOO

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Guys, remember when I blogged through my gawking at a beautiful girl sitting across from me for two hours and then, when she thanked me for telling her that she was really pretty right as she was leaving, I blushed and stammered and sAID NO, THANK YOU??

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I GOT THE CRUISE SHIP JOB!!!