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Today's mood is crying because I ate soup.

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If you eat less than 1,000 cals, unless you're already underweight, you will lose. It's science. It's math. Pure logic. And yet I get days where I'm convinced I'm gonna gain because I ate over 500 cals, or even just ate. Like tonight. 610 cals. I'm going to gain, aren't I? I swear, I go through this every time I eat, as of late. Eating=gaining, even if it's not true... But why, then, do I still give in? A weakness in me? "I need the protein." I say "Vegetables have lots of vitamins and fiber" I continue. But inside, my head is screaming that those are all excuses because I'm too fat to starve right.

[evanescentserenity]

Okay, I had a protein shake and I’m chill now. That actually kind of makes sense.

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I have this problem where I’m simultaneously disgusted at myself for eating 500 cals, but also wanting to eat more because I’ve “only” eaten 500 cals.

And somehow it doesn’t matter what the number is. That’s always my mentality. Can I make up my mind???

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I don't think anyone follows this blog, but this is more of a personal note anyways. I'll be putting "es" before every tag word. "Recipes" will now become "esrecipes" and so on. I only ever saw tags as a way to easily find posts on my blog before, but saw a post mentioning how putting thinspo or ana related things in normal tags can be damaging, so yeah... Note to self: for more recent stuff, tag everything with your blog initials first. Though I probably don't need to do it for thinspo, meanspo, sweetspo, or edmemes