#eternalman

[cmromanova]

We remain as one

Hey you, guess today's the day that marks your 3rd year of leaving this earth. I miss you like crazy! can you believe it? time passes quickly. So many memories went through my head today, all the way till your end... its the only painful memory I have. I wish I had the chance to see you one last time, to tell you how much I love you, to hear your voice call my name. I was suppose to see you that December, I wish you waited before you took those final steps of death and left my heart broken. I'll wait for our December for the rest of my life. I know you are free, and I'll see you in the Elysian Fields. You've made such an impact on my life.... please guide me, you are my guardian angel 

I want to thank you for the day you have given me today, I woke up with a lot of pain and emptiness inside me... shorty after I received such great news...a special guy got his visa approved. I knew in my heart he was going to get approved, but I wasn't expecting it today. It felt like a gift. The night was beautiful, filled with fireworks... today truly was an amazing day...

For the first time in three years... I didn't feel much pain as before

The secret lives in my soul, I wish you were alive, I can't wish you back to life 

R.I.P ETERNAL MAN 10/12/2009

[cmromanova]

Fucking October 1st

This month by all means is the month I absolutely hate, everything goes wrong....to begin, I couldn't sleep, thinking about it and I'm already having a shitty morning filled with anger. UGHHHHH!! I wish you were still here, but you ruined my life almost three years ago now on the 12th of this month. BIG FUCKING THANKS!! 

they say it get easier with time, its true

but the moment you decided to look back, you re-open the wound that has been healed 

[cmromanova]

Verse For Forgiveness

It will be three years soon... since I last heard of you. Your birthday is this month... so I've been thinking about you more than usual. Its amazing how fast time passes by, the world continues without you in it... as if you never existed. I cry almost every night because I think of you and how much I miss you. I still have a great amount of pain left in me but it gets easier as the days go by. So many memories of us together.... I always like to remember that time when it was you and I ... sitting outside, I was taking a video of you..I remember telling you to say something but you didn't know what to say so we both laughed. But what I remember the most was looking at your beautiful green eyes, I hope I never forget such a beautiful sight. You are my hero, did you know that? I know you are still with me, even if you are not physically here anymore. I know you are looking down from above, protecting and guiding me. You are my guardian angel, I love you always and forever. 

I'll never know why you smiled and waved goodbye