#eun sian

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Yall know a female lead that gets 0 recognition? And I MEAN IT when I say 0?? Eun Sian from secret alliance. The main character of the series.

It’s TRAGIC to me that I can’t find fans of the work that actually enjoy it! And I mean enjoy the story and the characters on a deeper level. Everyone I find is “I loooove Chae Yul!! Such a cute yandere boy >_< Sian should’ve ended up with him instead!! He loved her so much more than Yujin >_>” and I hate every single of them. /srs

Look I love Chae Yul as a character, a lot, but it’s so upsetting that people ONLY care about him (and even then, they don’t actually care about him! They care about the flanderized yandere boyfriend slop) when we have such an amazing main character!

Sian is one hell of a strong woman and it’s so wonderful to watch her growing, empowering herself, taking back control of her life when she always felt that control being ripped away from her during her entire life. From being sexually abused at such a young age, her mother blaming her for it and transforming her resentment into control and severe manipulation and psychological abuse, her whole mind was shaped around paranoia and isolation, she wasn’t able to live her life to its fullest. And when she finally decided to try and do things her own way, to prove to herself maybe things weren’t as bad as her mother made it out to be, she was unlucky enough to have her only stable relationship with a man end up THAT poorly. She grows into an adult that’s very closed off, of course she’s smart and perfectly competent, but the mental barrier she has to deal with is a lot. And still, even after all of that, she wants to be independent! To grow! She looks for solutions, a job where she can feel safe, then get the help from a man she doesn’t fear to slowly get over her phobia, then to be in a romantic relationship again, and to stand up against Chae Yul once and for all and finally live her life

It pisses me off so much when peopole say Yul loved Sian because it shows 👏they👏did not👏read👏it👏. The core of the story is that Yul doesn’t love Sian. He loved a savior. He loved an ideal. He was OBSESSED with it. Yul was a mentally ill young man who was completely neglected and enabled until his actions finally reached an extreme point. Yul didn’t see Sian as her own person and he never would’ve had they stayed together, he wanted perfection, he wanted the version of Sian that was scared and putting up a front, he wanted that savior that would always come running to him, an idolized pure version of her to keep all to himself. Sian not allowing him to keep her in that box is the most powerful thing she does, she’s able to flip that switch in her mind even with the years of that terrible mentality she cultivated for so many years

And she stays with Yujin, who’s the opposite of Yul. Sian doesn’t need to hide who she is from him, not even her worst sides, her jealousy, her emotional turmoil, you get it. And Yujin respects her just as he is. He isn’t with her as an attempt to fix his life and his issues, but he’s willing to stick to her, to protect her when she needs it, to support her when she falls apart and lift her back up again. People really undermine how fucked up what they went through was, but still, he did not leave her side, because he loves her, really loves her. He is reliable, understanding, caring, respectful of her boundaries, he values that woman so much. Cries. (I’m sorry I’m a shipper man I need to ramble about my silly romance)

This is her with Yul. This is her with Yujin. I rest my damn case

ALSO I HATE PEOPLE COMPLAINING ABOUT THEM CUTTING THEIR HAIR BECAUSE ITS SO OBVIOUSLY MEANT TO REPRESENT HOW HAIR HOLDS MEMORIES AND THEM CUTTING IT SYMBOLIZES GROWTH AND NEW BEGINNINGS AAAAHZJAHAJAJS

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oh. my. goodness. its like 3am in my area and i just finished a nightlong binge on the manhwa, Secret Alliance by Creator Lero. if i had to put it into a genre, i’d say its a psychological thriller, and…

ho. ly. shit.

i was never a visual novel or “comics” person, but holy fuck. this blew me away. i discovered a tik tok about it, with the nutshell plot of “stalker crossdresses as a girl to stalk his object of attraction, who is afraid of men” and quickly gained an interest. but as i read further into the manhwa, it was so much more than that.

before i get into the details, i warn that the manhwa has dark topics such as stalking, obsession, attempted suicide, assault, sexual harassment, and trauma. the ramble (and spoilers) is gonna be below the cut. stay safe and healthy yall

okay. ho. ly. shit.

so, i don’t even know where to begin. the first few chapters introduce our main characters, eun sian and chae “yuri”. right off the bat, you quickly realize eun sian’s intense fear of men. you can already tell that she has some trauma with men, and as you continue to read, you find that her paranoid mother perpetuates and reinforces that fear; a helicopter parent to the extreme.

not only that, you can immediately detect that something isnt quite right with chae yuri (even before it was revealed he was a guy).

i dont really wanna explain the whole story in its entirety, as i believe its a story best experienced. but what i will go into is the amount of love that was poured into this story. it still astounds me

the characters are complex, and their personalities and actions are deeply rooted in the trauma that they went through. eun sian and chae yuri’s relationship is so toxic and wrought with manipulation and co-dependent, and it was written so well. it beautifully illustrates how two people that come from two different, but toxic households often can find themselves in a toxic relationship for the both of them, as they have no other reference for love.

and speaking of relationships, yujin’s and eun sian’s relationship makes me want to squeal and giggle and they’re just so cute!! i loveee at the beginning, yujin subverts our expectations and ends up being a playboy who loves the feeling of being wanted. it gives him sm room for development, and makes his relationship with eun sian so much sweeter.

yujin and eun sian make a deal that he helps her get over her fear of men, while eun sian helps yunjin get together with chae yuri. in the earliest stages of their relationship, you can tell that yujin was able to ground eun sian and reassure her when needed. even beneath his playboy exterior, his caring nature shone through, especially for her. meanwhile, eun sian makes yujin want to be better for her (and if you seen a very old post, you know how i feel about that). i loved their friendship at the beginning, and i loved their romance at the end. they’re so healthy for each other and im glad they got together in the end

and speaking of the ending?????? sjdkdndkddjjdksjdsknsnz. i loved it so. much. it was just so fulfilling. i won’t spoil it, but it touched my soul to its very core, and i couldnt think of a more satisfying note to leave it off of.

the depiction of trauma felt very realistic and well written too. eun sian’s breakdowns felt so well done, and not once did it feel like the story was calling her “crazy” or “hysterical” even if other characters told her that she was. and actually, all the relationships felt so realistic, its astounding.

and the character development was so… empowering. it was amazing to watch the moments eun sian take back the parts of herself that her abusers took, it was amazing to watch yujin transform from a playboy to a golden retriever boyfriend. i just… love love love!!

i do wish they delved into yujin’s backstory a lil more, gave hyunee (the best friend) a more influential role, and did some more with yunjin’s blackmail when he found out about chae yuri, but all in all, i loved it. i started reading at 11, and kept reading til 3. its an absolute page turner, and extreme kudos to the artist(s) and writer(s)! you have my respect

to those who want to read it, the sites i read the manhwa either has a subscription service, or an insane amount of porn ads and porn pop up browser tabs. just for viewer discretion. if it sounds like yall can deal, please read! you won’t regret it. ill definitely be revisiting this manhwa again and again. its that good

have a wonderful day yall! im finally gonna get some sleep