I've just very recently finished reading one of your fan fictions on ao3, ELLIPSISM. I admit I'm not really one to get emotional easily but your writing made me sit silently with unshed tears in my eyes for awhile, and before I realised it, I had started crying.
Even besides the wonderful way you've managed to express each character's emotions and perspective, and kept a steady balance as well, I think the realism is what really hit me, it felt as though someone had put into words what I normally would not be able to express in words. It felt relieving almost in a way, to know there are people that do understand to some extent if not more how someone else in this vast planet had and could be feeling at this very moment.
I've already gone past the word limit but I really felt like I had to write to you to show how much I appreciate the way you've written everything, words really aren't enough but I bet you a thousand times over that a majority of people that have read your work agree with me. There is so much unfiltered rawness and I'm soft in an angsty way to the core with how you've shown that even though Jungkook was surrounded by people that cared for him, his darkness had still managed to overpower him, it may have evaporated or been shadowed by the joy of being around his friends, being around Taehyung, but in the end as Yoongi said, Kookie needs to want for change to happen and come to accept that the happiness that came into his life is not something temporary. I absolutely love the ending, scratch that I love everything,period.
I've heard one too many times before that you need to find the will to live on for yourself, rather than something or something else, but that seems like such an ultimate and idealised form for a human being to reach, I think it's okay, until you can come to actually start living for yourself, whatever is keeping you here, let it keep you here.
Maybe it's your favourite restaurant, the food you'd miss, maybe it's a special someone or a friend, maybe group of friends, your family, people you cherish. Maybe it's your pet, maybe it's a social media site, or a community circle you found somewhere on the net, maybe it's a place, maybe it's a book you read, maybe it's a stranger that said something that hit you harder than it should've, whatever it is, I think you showcased this with Jungkook and his friends.
ahhh this is getting so long I apologise for the spammy length filled paras but I just wanted to let you know in case you're having a hard time figuring out who you are or where you're going, where you've been, what you want to do, just having a hard time in general, please remember you are worth so much more, that the tiniest things make a difference, just as your words could for your readers, I hope ours can do the same for you.
ahhh this is getting so long I apologise for the spammy length filled paras but I just wanted to let you know in case you're having a hard time figuring out who you are or where you're going, where you've been, what you want to do, just having a hard time in general, please remember you are worth so much more, that the tiniest things make a difference, just as your words could for your readers, I hope ours can do the same for you.
this is the longest and sweetest ask i’ve ever received on here :(( just...wow...when i first drafted ellipsism it wasn’t supposed to be something super serious initially, just kind of a vent-y outline, but then i started posting it to ao3 and somehow, it became much more than that. the ending was so hard for me to write because i wanted it to be perfect in my own way...there’s still so much story to tell. jeongguk has just began his road to recovery and although taekook have confessed their feelings, they’re still a far cry from being in a relationship. but i feel like, at least right now, that’s not my story to tell. either way, i hope jeongguk finds something that will keep him and holds onto it until he can confidently stand on his own two feet. thank you so much for all of the love, blossom. :’)