“ sometimes it feels like i am the only one doing an effort here… ” for whoever u vibe with hehe
In which Jacob gets fed up.
Warnings: yelling, fighting, crying
“Jangmi are you even listening to me?” Jacob’s sharp voice questioned her. It was a tone that she wasn’t used to hearing, not from Jacob who had always been nothing but kind and sweet to her. Even on the days she didn’t deserve it.
She looked away from the older, not wanting to have this fight with him, not when they were so close to being good. It all started when she had told Jacob about the text from Hanbin and what had been a very civil and nice conversation of Jangmi venting out her complex feeling for the older, suddenly took a turn that she hadn’t expected. Though, she wonders how she couldn’t have seen it coming, if Jacob had been obsessed and talking about his ex (well, Hanbin wasn’t even an ex, but it wasn’t time to get into that debate), she would have been upset too. Kind and sweet Jacob had to snap eventually, they all did, so it should have come as such a surprise to her that things ended up this way.
“Do you even care about this or are you just using me as a way to get over Hanbin?” the words hit Jangmi in the heart. She never wanted to hurt him, not like this. “When we first started this, I thought maybe you’d get over him in a bit, maybe it was just some lingering feelings of a big love affair you two had, but it’s been months Jangmi.” She couldn’t find it in her to get Jacob to stop because it was true, she hadn’t gotten over Hanbin. She wanted to, but she hadn’t yet.
Jangmi could feel his eyes on her, probably looking for some sort of reaction, but Jangmi couldn’t find it in herself to meet his eyes. He let out a small scoff, “Sometimes it feels like I am the only one doing an effort here.”
“Jacob-” The younger started, her eyes flashing to the man’s in a second, but she stopped herself, there was nothing she could say that would make it any better.
“Can you tell me that I’m wrong?” he questioned and Jangmi almost wished she never looked back at him, the tears starting to well up in his eyes as he spoke. “Can you honestly look at me and tell me that you’re putting half as much effort into this relationship as I am?”
Jangmi stayed silent, feeling the familiar prick on tears welling up in her eyes, but she forced them to stay down. She hurt Jacob, she shouldn’t be the one to cry, not when that would make Jacob feel even worse for calling her out.
They stayed silent like that, neither of them saying a word, neither of them shedding a tear as they looked at each other waiting for the other to talk first. Jacob looked away first, shaking his head, his jaw set.
“Call me when you figure your shit out,” the words rang through the silence, but he didn't wait for them to settle in the air before he turned on his heel, picking up his coat, and leaving the room without another word.
