Day 3
Before even beginning today’s challenge, I knew I would have a hard time. Normally, I am not the most confident person (not in any means really) and I have a hard time liking how I am. I wanted to try this challenge because I want to train myself to be positive about everything that is me. I deserve to love how I am as a person and I should, as should everyone else. Everyone is different but everyone is amazing in their own way, and I, personally, need to remind myself of this.
I was nervous for the first set of the challenge. The challenge focused on complimenting myself. I planned to go in front of a mirror four times throughout the day and saying something nice about myself two times (each time).
When I first woke up, the first thought on my mind was a reminder to myself that this was my challenge today. The second I remembered, the nerves began. I took a breath though and relaxed myself because this shouldn’t be so difficult or hard to think about. It should come natural for me to be confident in myself (which is what I hope I can eventually achieve--this being the first, small step).
I decided to do my makeup today to help out the process a little bit and help me find ways to compliment myself (as well as help me believe myself a little more). Before I even started my making I looked in the mirror and stated to myself;
“You are beautiful without makeup and you are beautiful with it.”
This was the first compliment I would state for myself and it was more difficult than I imagined to actually say it. I took a breath and continued doing my makeup, hoping the the process would be a little less nerve-wracking for me. When I finished my makeup, I looked in the mirror and stated;
“You do your makeup beautifully even though you do not need it.” This completes the first set of the two compliments.
Then I continued with the day normally. I cleaned up my room, started laundry, and made some breakfast. My boyfriend has night shifts tonight, so I stayed in bed with him mostly through the day because that was our little routine. In between resting with him, I worked on homework. The next set of compliments came around when I was putting away towels. I happened to be in front of the mirror and decided I might as well do the next set.
“Your eyes are uniquely blue and they pop in the sun. Your skin may be pale but it is beautifully rare and porcelain. Both make you unique in your own way.”
This set of compliments was done all at once, and honestly felt really nice to say. I felt proud of myself a little for being able to just say it. My eyes and skin are two things I worry about and dislike sometimes, so I knew saying this to myself would bring confidence to those aspects.
I continued through the day by making lunch next. As I continued with the day I thought about the next two sets. I wondered what I would say when the time came and how it would make me feel.
The next time came around when I was cleaning the bathroom up. I looked in the mirror and said,
“You work hard and do well at the things you strive for. You are good enough for anybody and you are good enough for yourself.”
This set was a little different than straight compliments but the little ‘pick me up’ felt great. This is something anyone can be reminded of and I needed to hear it.
The last set came when I took off my makeup after eating dinner. I decided I wanted the last set of compliments to be me looking at my bare skin. My natural, bare face with nothing but the true ME looking back.
I stated to myself,
“You are smart, you are kind, you are caring, you are perfect as you are inside and out.”
I decided to go all out with this set because I wanted to truly help myself see what I was saying. I wanted to get it through my head that I am perfect as me and that is that.
By the end of this, I truly felt better. I realized I can see some things I like about myself whether it be 24/7 or just random moments--I can work towards finding a confidence in myself. I think this challenge was really inspiring and I plan to do something like this more often. Everyone deserves to feel special, and sometimes we need to do it ourselves to really make it try to believe it.
