#ex-queer

[christianveganqueer]

Coming out as not being trans?

Now that I've stopped hormones for 4 months and started a new job, I'm finding myself just as insecure as before. The hormones wasn't a cure, it was a mask. I'm still shy and insecure. I "pass" as a gender I no longer identify as.. and I feel too awkward to "fix" It. This is a mess.

[christianveganqueer]

In what ways are/were you queer? What changed? And are you a boy? (Most ex-queers on here are girls, so Im just curious)

Hey!

So over the years I identified with different sexual orientations and genders.

I was born female, and around 12/13 I identified as a lesbian and then bisexual. Around age 16 I identified as Pansexual. Around 18 I identified as gender queer until coming out as female-to-male transgender, and then just identified as Male and was on Hormone Replacement Therapy for two years, taking Testosterone.

I look back and call it all queer because I was always trying to understand if I was really technically “straight” (Male liking Women) or Pansexual, and unsure how I felt about identifying as a trans-man or if I wanted to be “stealth”.

So, right now, I identify as a heterosexual cis-female. Aka just a female sinner saved by the grace of God.

ADD: I realise after I posted this that you asked what changed!

What changed was that though I was calling myself a Christian for years and went through The Bible (mostly the parts that are seen to condemn homosexuality) and was able to find what seemed to be justification for how I was living my life, I came to a point where I just desired God and His Truth and He gave it to me (I have a YouTube link to my testimony in my description).

After that moment I just wasn’t the same. I finally truly, wholeheartedly gave God my whole life; the good, the bad, the ugly, including my sexuality and identity. It’s been more than just a rocky ride ever since but I wouldn’t change a thing. I feel so free. I know that I am free. I’m no longer a slave to my own flesh and emotions, no longer swayed or convinced by society’s influences but by God’s Word alone.

I am completely open to any questions you may have! Don’t be shy (: