haven't been on tumblr in like a month but --
thank you, vrains. thank you for everything. i loved watching the characters grow and face their traumas, i loved watching their bonds develop, and i will never forget how much you helped me, too.
saying goodbye to vrains is particularly difficult bc this wass the final show a dear friend binged for me, and was the final thing we talked about before she took her own life. it's hard enough to let go of a show that already came to mean so much to me, but add that in and i've been bawling like a fuckin baby for the last half hour lmao. it's a bit like saying goodbye to her for good, and six months later, i wasn't really ready for that.
but this show really meant a lot to me, even besides that. it got me back into creative writing, it helped me make new friends for the first time in a long time, it brought back some of my passion from the dark depths of depression. before vrains, i had been mindlessly floating between interests for awhile, because i was so depressed nothing would stick. i hadn't been depressed like that in years. but vrains, watching yusaku struggle and learn despite his traumas, was exactly what i needed at that time. it was a time in my life i was trying to move on from my own trauma and finding i really didn't know how, and i grew so depressed because of it. it's kind of embarrassing, but yusaku and ryoken are what pulled me out. they gave me the strength i needed to find my way out of my own head and for the first time in my life begin to heal, properly.
truly, though, i love this show. i will always love this show. i don't care that it could've been better in a lot of aspects right now. i don't care that it had faults. i love this show for what it is, all those "faults" and all.
