#about vrains

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does revolver vrains know i'm in love with him

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haven't been on tumblr in like a month but --

thank you, vrains. thank you for everything. i loved watching the characters grow and face their traumas, i loved watching their bonds develop, and i will never forget how much you helped me, too.

saying goodbye to vrains is particularly difficult bc this wass the final show a dear friend binged for me, and was the final thing we talked about before she took her own life. it's hard enough to let go of a show that already came to mean so much to me, but add that in and i've been bawling like a fuckin baby for the last half hour lmao. it's a bit like saying goodbye to her for good, and six months later, i wasn't really ready for that.

but this show really meant a lot to me, even besides that. it got me back into creative writing, it helped me make new friends for the first time in a long time, it brought back some of my passion from the dark depths of depression. before vrains, i had been mindlessly floating between interests for awhile, because i was so depressed nothing would stick. i hadn't been depressed like that in years. but vrains, watching yusaku struggle and learn despite his traumas, was exactly what i needed at that time. it was a time in my life i was trying to move on from my own trauma and finding i really didn't know how, and i grew so depressed because of it. it's kind of embarrassing, but yusaku and ryoken are what pulled me out. they gave me the strength i needed to find my way out of my own head and for the first time in my life begin to heal, properly.

truly, though, i love this show. i will always love this show. i don't care that it could've been better in a lot of aspects right now. i don't care that it had faults. i love this show for what it is, all those "faults" and all.

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me, with 15 other current WIPs: wow i have a lot of emotions after that episode better write about it

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wow i cannot believe vrains is getting shafted so fucking hard i'm so mad and heartbroken rn lmao fuck this

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hi sorry i'm on vacation with shitty service hence why i haven't been on (i'll be home tomorrow tho) BUT i marched my ass down to the lodge in this extremely cold campsite this morning (it's early here ok) to get wifi to watch vrains and now i gotta talk about it while i'm still here in the warmth lol god i love revolver i love him so much wtf he knows soulburner will never be able to move on like playmaker and so he's giving him the fight he wants. im nearly positive revolver will win which i think is..important? for soulburner? more on that later his comments about playmaker not being able to defeat ai seem really harsh but honestly it's almost like he's trying to spare playmaker of doing it. maybe that's my very obvious ship bias but something about him denying that it had nothing to do with trust made me think that lol i really liked ai watching menacingly this episode lmao but it was also,, a little sad. makes me wonder if he only had the ship like that to make roboppi happy and that's :((( BUT back to soulburner losing: i think it's important to have him lose to move on. him winning only justifies hanging onto his misplaced anger after all these years, and it even seemed like he was starting to understand revolver but was too angry to let go of those feelings still? like if revolver had won against playmaker back at the end of s1, ignoring the tower and everything, emotionally that would've told revolver his feelings were right and that moving on was something unachievable. playmaker winning that was necessary to begin his path of healing (and playmaker's!!), and i think the same will be true of revolver winning here. imo that's why revolver set up vrains to look like the facility - so soulburner can get everything out and let it all go, as the preview seems to imply lol. it'll be good to see soulburner let go, too. he deserves to move on and find happiness. anyways those are my long thoughts sorry i love vrains i love revolver see y'all when i'm not struggling to find service tomorrow

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listen this was a fine episode and i really enjoyed the rev/pm mini talk here but vrains

really

am i blanking or when aoi learned yusaku is pm does she also find out about takeru??? ik logically she could've put it together on her own even if it wasn't stated but. i'm so sad i just want more phoenixship interactions

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ok i gotta like. get up but real quick

aoi as always dueled phenomenally even if the plot makes her lose, like really, it was really obvious ai only won bc plot reasons tho it was nice to see the water dragon..............love its design, i also missed the animation for ritual summons lol

revolver was so good this episode too wtf,,,, his declaration to ai at the end really hurt me. i love when vrains confirms my thoughts on him specifically lol

and oh man. i missed soulburner getting excited over aoi LOL my phoenixship heart still beats for them ig

but really aoi and rev have my entire soul i love them both sm...........

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i didn't get a chance to talk about it this morning but really.. i think it was very interesting the vrains made revolver say that he didn't care about ai but ai very obviously realized that he had left loop holes in pandor's coding to decide to let ai go if he would leave the zaizens alone immediately afterwards

it was honestly really telling of revolver's feelings and thoughts about things and i loved the way they handled it