#eye-patched

[kwehsplay]

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[savageleewriting]

Side-Effects Include: Confusion

I'm sick of this eye-patch. I'm sick of taking medication; hormonal steroids that get caught in my system and leave me feeling confused and frustrated.

I'm sick of getting eye-strain from not blinking, and letting in too much light. 

I haven't shaved in over a week; this is the longest my facial hair has ever been, aside from when I was 21 and had a dumb little beard under my chin. I'm not shaving because I don't have to, I don't want to... I don't want to look at my face in the mirror. 

I'm sick of me, of being in doors. I'm sick of being sick. I'm sick of feeling like there's bubblegum caught in the left side of my mouth. I'm sick of feeling like I can't see right, I'm sick of being tired from looking at screens. 

I'm sick of tasting my tears rolling uncontrollably down the left side of my face. 

[savageleewriting]

Coming Soonish

Just recorded a Spoken Word video, with me, with my Bell's Palsy. I've got my patch, and half my mouth still isn't moving a bunch... It's an interesting place to be in. 

[savageleewriting]

You Let My Heart Go Too Fast

"Yeah, why don't you look me in the eyes when you say that," I said as she slit my belly open and used my entrails to spell out a love letter to that cute little pink-haired girl down the hall. 

Yeah, she cut me open like I was a package wrapped in plain brown paper, arrived fresh from the mail. She slit my strings and she peeled back my thin little layers.

"Have you ever loved anything that hasn't killed you?" she asked me, her fingers sticky with the pancake syrups and desert sands that flow out from my injuries.

"Not today," I admit as I slide a little to the left and down a bit. "Not yet today."

[savageleewriting]

Make Sure You Get My Good Side

So, this day three of me and my eye-patch. 

I'm still on medication, taking a combination of pills for this inflamed nerve in my face, which is why the left side of my face slightly immobile. I can't blink right, and the left side of my mouth is slightly less expressive. It makes smoking and eating kind of tricky, and I sorta need to drink my beverages with a straw. 

And I gotta wear this patch. 

Mixed feelings. It does look sorta cool, sorta stupid… It makes me feel like Snake Pliskin in a suit. I bump into shit, it fucks with my ability to find stuff… but you know what? It could be so much worse. I'm not in pain, it should get better, and I can talk fine. Those are the things that matter to me.

It is kind of fucking with my processes. I don't really feel like writing or you know, participating, but whatever.

I think I'm going to play D&D after work tonight, the first time I've gotten into an RPG in like 15 years. I'm looking forward to it! I'm gonna play a hypnotist gunslinger. Possibly with an eye-patch.