[1:38am] I honestly don't know how or what to feel. I was listening to some old KDrama OST while I was at the office while waiting for SJ to drop their comeback. I intentionally searched for J-Min's 'Stand Up' (To The Beautiful You's OST) and caught a glimpse of the FMV with Sulli on it. An hour later, my friend sent me the link of the news. I had goosebumps. It felt like a premonition. I was expecting this day to be fun and bright since it's my friend's birthday and it's comeback day. I felt down like I'm okay but something's off. I still waited for the Super Clap's MV release but when it wasn't uploaded and there were no updates on SJ's SNS, I realized they must've postponed because of the news of Sulli's death. It must've been difficult and shocking for all of them, for all of the SM Artists who have been close to her especially her members in f(x). I went on with my day because that's how life is. Someone died but other people has to go on with life even if it feels awful inside. It still hurts when I think about Jonghyun's death. I'm not a Shawol nor a MeU but it's not even about what fandom you belong to. I only hope she's in a better place now. I got the feeling that she may not be feeling well deep inside despite what she shows on her SNS for the past few months but ignored it. Didn't know my gut feeling was right. Please stay strong everyone. Support not just your idols but anyone around you that needs it.
