I’ve talked about how I feel about my three little ducklings a few times but I suppose its time for a general overview on how I feel about each one, huh?
I recently talked a bit about Julie and I’s relationship, least to say, I hate her. Or well, I guess I tolerate her existence. Our entire romantic, sexual, and I guess our non-existent friendship is built on toxic foundations. I made...I really fucking bad mistake (I can’t really say that, I knew what I was doing, I just wasn’t serious about the relationship and I was 100% “cheating” on Julie the whole time we were considered together. But that does not excuse what I did at all.) and I shouldn’t have even agreed to date her. Her presence physically brings me a level of discomfort and anger. Just little shit about her drives me fucking insane and makes me want to strangle her till she stops moving. I don’t like her and she doesn’t fucking like me, at least I don’t think she does.
Susie is Susie. She’s a little shit and she cries and whines a lot but...in a little sister way if that makes sense. I like Susie and I find her presence at times a little annoying but in a sibling way which isn’t bad. I would let her draw on my arms if she got bored and I would end up with a whole new marker tattoo sleeve full of little cartoon doodles. Julie often chastised me a lot for chewing and picking at my nails and Susie would pick on me about it, even though she does it too, but I let her fuckin’ paint my nails and shit. I kinda let her go crazy with whatever color or whatever she did unless it looked shitty.
Susie always dragged me around a lot to see kids movies and comedy shit because...I actually don’t know, I’m the worst person to bring to movies because I drift in and out of sleep the entire time. Anyways, I enjoy Susie, shes my second favorite duckling. She encouraged me to be “creative” and she would sit me and down and have me help on school projects that needed to be decorated. Well, it was more like I handed her things and she would nod and put it on it. Susie is more of a hands on creative kid, ya’know? She likes to make masks and would sit with me and make some that were just for show. She’s a good kid.
JoJo, Joe, Joey, he...is...special, that is for sure. He drives me insane, but not like Julie, not in the sibling way Susie does. It’s just so...intriguing and fun to be around him. He is an attention whore, and I mean it. He craves it and it just makes it all the more fun to be around him one on one and see his eyes glow when he talks about the shit he likes. He goes crazy when he’s allowed to paint and draw. I showed up for some event he was part taking in and he was so happy. He has an infectious smile, it’s just so bright especially when its sincere.
Joey is probably the Legion member I have spent the most time with, alone that is. He stayed over at my apartment frequently and just...it was fun, he shouldn’t have been, but it was fun having someone over who wasn’t just going to be gone in the morning. We’ve slowly built up a decent amount of trust between us...it definitely took a lot of work from me to learn things. I definitely said and did a lot of shit that...did not make him comfortable. And it would be fair to say, he did slap me quiet a few times and did shout at me for things I said. Granted, I deserved it. I still don’t fully understand Joeys...situation, but I try not to cross boundaries I shouldn’t, at least not on purpose. Joey has had to explain his situation and identity to me plenty of times, but I’m a tad bit slow in that department. But he’s get enough patience to slowly work me through it.
Anyways, Joey is...not perfect. But neither are the rest of us. He’s got a lot going for him, and I wish he wasn’t stuck in this shit hole, same with Susie. I want them to be able to leave the Fog and spread their wings, claim what they deserve, work their way to the top.
Julie? I want Julie to go back and rediscover herself. Figure out what she actually wants in life.
